Debbie Cousins's Journal, 10 Nov 19

I just spent some time taking a long, hard look at my Weight Chart and Food Diary from WAY back when I was doing well and losing weight consistently. I discovered that when I was able to check that I followed my diet plan 100%, I lost weight. When I wasn't eating ANYTHING non-Keto, I lost weight. When I stayed within my RDI for Calories, I lost weight. When my weight was down, I could walk up and down stairs with only one foot on each stair. Now that my weight is back up (THIRTY pounds since Spring!) my knees hurt ALL the time, and I am back to walking down stairs sideways, having to put both feet on each stair before I can put one foot down to the next one.

I tend to determine my self worth based upon how well I am doing on my weight-loss program. I'm doing lousy - I FEEL lousy about myself. I know that if I get back on track, I will have a more positive outlook on things. I'll feel better mentally, physically, even spiritually.

SO, you may ask, what am I waiting for? It just seems like such an insurmountable task to get back down to where I was! When I was down in the 170's, I couldn't even imagine myself ever getting back up to the 190's, much less over 200 again!

This is a hard time of year to try to get back on track! Thanksgiving is just around the corner, with Christmas following right on its heels. Mashed potatoes, gravy, stuffing, pineapple-cheese casserole, sweet potato casserole, pies, cakes -- all of them are just around the corner. I've got about two weeks until Thanksgiving. Maybe I could try to do really well between now and then - take Thanksgiving Day and the day after (for leftovers), and then get right back on track until Christmas Eve. The thing is, though, I just made a batch of Tapioca Pudding, I have a bag of red grapes and three Asian Pears. Maybe if I am able to limit myself to ONE serving of tapioca and one serving of fruit a day, I can still stay within my RDI. But, there's no way to stay within my Net Carbs doing that.

Decisions, decisions!

View Diet Calendar, 10 November 2019:
2239 kcal Fat: 120.76g | Prot: 61.88g | Carbs: 235.17g.   Breakfast: Midnight Beauty Black Seedless Grapes, Polaner Sugar Free Strawberry Preserves with Fiber, Land O'Lakes Salted Butter, Skippy Extra Crunchy Super Chunk Peanut Butter. Lunch: Butter (Salted), Great Value Deli Style Sliced Sharp Cheddar Cheese, Great Value Deli Style Sliced Sharp Cheddar Cheese, Great Value Enriched White Bread. Dinner: Pecan Nuts, Philadelphia Original Cream Cheese, Butter (Salted), Thomas' Cinnamon Raisin English Muffins, Truvia Sweetener (Packet), Land O'Lakes Heavy Whipping Cream, Twinings Earl Grey Tea, Butter (Salted), Ukrop's White House Rolls. Snacks/Other: TAPIOCA PUDDING - Skim Milk, Publix Red Seedless Grapes, Atkins Endulge Chocolate Coconut Bar (MINUS Sugar Alcohol). more...

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Remember, the person you are today deserves your love. If you love yourself today, perhaps that will make it easier to be kind to yourself, to take care of yourself, to put your wellbeing above your desire for unhealthy eating. Love yourself more than you love tapioca pudding or Thanksgiving dinner. Good luck on your journey, I wish you all the best. 💛💚💜 
10 Nov 19 by member: shirfleur 1
One day at a time - I was thinking exactly what Anna Bear wrote as I was reading your profile. You just have to get through the day, and then tomorrow. I was able to get through the Holidays 2 years ago with a small LOSS. First time ever. But I was very determined. I had no eggnog or holiday baked goods or candy in the house. Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners were not at my house. I was able to eat turkey, mashed potatoes, stuffing, cranberry sauce, green bean casserole, etc - but I ate TINY portions. Maybe a tablespoon or two of most of it. I skipped the snack items, chips, etc but did have a teeny, tiny piece of apple pie. I was satisfied, got to taste everything, wasn't hungry, but also not stuffed. I also refused to take home any of the massive quantity of leftovers home! So you have to decide how you want to get through the holidays. Either expect and accept a gain, or try to just maintain, or see if you can lose just a bit. If Tapioca pudding is your thing right now, I would just have it in small portions and work the rest of your day around it. You can do it! 
10 Nov 19 by member: Fritzy 22
I believe I you❤️💜💚 it takes time. You can definitely get back there and let yourself enjoy the holidays. 
10 Nov 19 by member: jcmama777
Just writing the truth has already placed your feet on the path. Little by little, one goes far.  
10 Nov 19 by member: rgaDawg
your honesty with yourself means everything! You will succeed, one step at a time! 
10 Nov 19 by member: Sweet_Marie
Debbie dear...you put a voice to a lot of what I am feeling. I am dreading the holidays this year, for different reasons than yours. So glad you looked at what works for you because you have a goal you can work toward. I'm not making ANY holiday snacks this year...empty calories. I don't love most Thanksgiving foods but my roomie does. I would rather just go to a restaurant, have a decadent meal, and not worry about leftovers and snacks. We'll see. 
10 Nov 19 by member: binkytexas
I just got an A1c report that puts me as prediabetic - that along with the high possibility of stroke is giving me a lot of motivation  
10 Nov 19 by member: abbadabba
Debbie, if you can make a commitment to yourself to try to eat within your RDI most days giving yourself a pass to enjoy a special meal/ treats only on Thanksgiving day, Christmas day and any special holiday parties between now & New Year's you can get back on track. Treat each day as a new opportunity to eat less & lose more. And this may seem harsh but I think you need to STOP making tapioca pudding. You know you can't resist it so don't have it there to tempt you. Try to find something to replace it with that is less calorie rich. And if you have a bad day just start fresh the next day. I'm rooting for you. ❤ YOU CAN DO THIS.  
10 Nov 19 by member: SherryeB
i kinda had a similar experience, lost 50+lbs with keto then low fat dieting. gained it all back when I stopped counting. I think it's all about rough adherence to RDI targets and certain items / certain meals (mostly desserts) can bring me 1000+ calories over the limit without even being consciously aware of the imbalance. the holidays aren't bad... it's like bad weekly rituals that mess up an entire week of reasonable eating.  
10 Nov 19 by member: jsagen
Debbie I hear ya hunny. I'm just gonna say no to anything that's gonna affect my progress. I don't want to have to double my efforts. it's been such a challenge to get where I am now. I have very little activity in my life so I no to stay with in my calories. it's hard because I'm human and some times I crave things. yesterday I made pinto beans a big pot just to see how they would come out. I didn't eat any just tasted the soup and a couple beans to test if they were done. instead I made 2 chicken drumsticks baked no breading and Italian greenbeans and brussel sprouts for me for dinner. I have that pot of beans in the fridge and now I'm wondering how to dispose of it.  
11 Nov 19 by member: clairsheart
Debbie, you have lost weight before and can do so again. Winter is the most difficult season for maintenance! I go on a pre-holiday reducing diet, then again in January - that's how I compensate for less exercise and holiday eating. 
11 Nov 19 by member: gz9gjg
Debbie you CAN do this and you know it. You have done it before. Don't focus on all the "bad" things, enjoy small portions and then get out and do something. Walk outside, too cold? Go to a mall or the gym. Whatever works for you! I weighed 284 and it took all my strength to do it, but here I am. Like I said, you already KNOW you can! Hang in there, we are all rooting for you 👍👍👍👍 
11 Nov 19 by member: phishphood
For me, it’s apple pie. I cannot resist it. I eat it til it’s gone, make myself sick from too many carbs, then beat myself up for lacking any discipline. I know you don’t want to hear me, but, go ahead, eat the whole bowl of tapioca. You made it for some reason. ? Any of us who share your difficulties understand the cycle you’re stuck in. We are all cheering for you, and praying too. Go with God my friend...💕 
11 Nov 19 by member: Sarah1950
one step at a time. each day is a new day to make choices. look too far ahead or behind and you miss the simple step you can take today you already know you can do this 
11 Nov 19 by member: Mom of Isabella
Don't fear the holidays. Hubby and I were just talking about this over the weekend because we'll be shopping for Thanksgiving this week. Even though we host all of our holiday meals/parties, we're just going to treat it like any other day. Don't allow food to control you. It's ok to enjoy your favorites, just be smart about it. For instance, in the past, I could eat 2-3 plates loaded up with stuffing, potatoes, mac n chesse...then of course indulge in pies, breads, cookies...oh just thinking about how I used to treat my body makes me shudder. Anyway, year after year, holidays, birthdays, anniversaries etc were a vicious cycle. Stay focused 
11 Nov 19 by member: kissangelgirl
Don't fear the holidays. Hubby and I were just talking about this over the weekend because we'll be shopping for Thanksgiving this week. Even though we host all of our holiday meals/parties, we're just going to treat it like any other day. Don't allow food to control you. It's ok to enjoy your favorites, just be smart about it. For instance, in the past, I could eat 2-3 plates loaded up with stuffing, potatoes, mac n chesse...then of course indulge in pies, breads, cookies...oh just thinking about how I used to treat my body makes me shudder. Anyway, year after year, holidays, birthdays, anniversaries etc were a vicious cycle. Stay focused 
11 Nov 19 by member: kissangelgirl
The holidays are difficult. I did my best a couple of years ago when I was able to get through the entire holiday season without alcohol (which always torpedoed any control I had). I made the decision not to make "gift" cookies or other holiday sweets to "share" with others. I made enough pie for Thanksgiving that each person could have one slice, and no more. I ate one small serving of each dish on the menu. It was amazing. I did not feel overstuffed, I enjoyed the food more, and was so proud of myself for being in control. I did not gain a pound. Last year I didn't do as well, drank and overstuffed myself. I'm trying to hang on to how good it felt to celebrate with control and replicate this way this year. I wish you the best in navigating the holidays in the way that will bring you most joy. 
11 Nov 19 by member: metamora

     
 

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