laraae's Journal, 29 Aug 19

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Hi all. I’ve been pretty aggravated these last few days, and have been stress-eating big time. I hurt my back on Saturday, and it’s been out since then. Lots of spasms and not being able to walk hardly. Saw my pain management doctor’s nurse practitioner, and she injected a bunch of “trigger points” on Monday. Went to physical therapy Tuesday, and I’m going again tomorrow. Been using my TENS unit constantly until today. Also took the dreaded Flexeril that makes me sleepy and want sugar at the same time. Doing better today. Went slowly and grocery shopped some—and didn’t buy any junk food, so NSV for me. Vacuumed up the massive amounts of dog hair that come from our 75 pound black lab/border collie mix—they were driving me nuts. Actually, everything was driving me nuts, and I get that way when I’m in pain. My back hasn’t gone out like this in months, and I drowned my sorrows in donuts, cake and ice cream. And cereal. Lots of carbs in the comfort foods I chose. And I didn’t record everything. By last night I’d finally had enough of sabotaging myself and went back to sugar free/fat free chocolate pudding and Gobstoppers. And fruity hot tea. I’m going to need to weigh in as I haven’t in over a week. I’ll do that tomorrow or Saturday. Or both. So in one way I’m telling on myself (being accountable), and in another I’m catching myself before I give up and just start eating everything in sight. I just hate that I haven’t been able to workout, and I hate the pain, and part of me gets scared that my back won’t get better and I’ll need another damn surgery... But it IS better today, and I DO want to eat healthily, and I CAN try walking the dogs tonight and maybe lifting tomorrow on a limited basis. And I WILL eat a dinner that’s good fuel for my body. And I’ll keep moving forward and read FS posts and get out of myself and get back on track. Thanks for listening to my combination “pity party/first-world problems” rant; I’m better now... 😬😬😬

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Fat: 19.25g | Prot: 19.50g | Carbs: 58.00g. Breakfast: Dunkin' Donuts French Vanilla Coffee, International Delight French Vanilla Coffee Creamer. Dinner: Leeann Chin Coconut Curry Chicken, Uncle Ben's Ready Rice - Basmati. more...

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I hope you start to feel better! Pain is a trigger for my eating! Take care.

29 Aug 19 by member: babayjo

When I feel out of control with pain, I remind myself to focus on what I can control, and that is my intake. I know how it feels to be so irritated by everything around you when you are overwhelmed with your body. Having that mindset has really helped me over the last year and a half. Take care of yourself and come up with some mental tactics that doesn't lead you to self medicating with food.

29 Aug 19 by member: dhatura

So sorry you're hurting! I gained 45 lbs after my concussion, so be careful about self-sabotage!

29 Aug 19 by member: erikahollister

I can identify --have suffered with back surgery and issues for 25 years. In addition to all you mentioned, I find hot packs provide immediate relief and if you keep it on and off, it really lessens length and severity of pain. Don't give in to it --you can do this.

29 Aug 19 by member: Zchefdonna

Stress and pain would do that. Call a friend or go for a walk. I was walking to a chocolate store when I called a friend. He reminded me of my goal and that stopped me from getting the delicious omg cake.

29 Aug 19 by member: moopie321

Ugh so sorry! Back and neck pain are so miserable! Just take care and go easy on yourself!

29 Aug 19 by member: jengetfit123

Or knit or crochet... make tea

29 Aug 19 by member: moopie321

oh noo! I hope you feel better soon! 😐💕🙏

29 Aug 19 by member: Keilin_4

Sometimes a good rant is important. Get all better! 💕💕💕

29 Aug 19 by member: Erquiaga

I know where you're coming from, @laraae! You have my sympathy! I hurt my back - just a "small" L4-5 disc herniation - years ago. The pain would take my breath away, and Flexeril did nothing for it. I refused surgery, opting instead for acupuncture with a skilled Chinese medicine practitioner, and American woman who is also a chiropractor. It took months and a lot of patience. I'll keep you in my prayers. May you heal soon!

29 Aug 19 by member: Miraculum

I’m glad your back is starting to feel better and good for you catching yourself before things get out of hand. I know exactly how that goes and I really admire you for journaling this as your going through it, when things like this happen to me, I just shut down and stop communicating, which probably makes it harder to come back from. I’m thinking about you and hope you’re back to feeling great very soon! 💕

29 Aug 19 by member: mrsroboto

Awe friend ❤️ Back pain is awful 😩 I hope it eases up and good for you getting back on track 💕

29 Aug 19 by member: jcmama777

Sounds really awful, I hope you feel better soon. 🌹🌹🌹

29 Aug 19 by member: shirfleur 1

It’s rough to get exercise and cook when you’re injured. I hope your issues aren’t compounded with quack medical advice. Feel better soon! ❤️

29 Aug 19 by member: me,myselfandi

I'm so sorry. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

30 Aug 19 by member: FullaBella

Good rant!!! Glad you are feeling better already and hope it continues to improve!

30 Aug 19 by member: Nikina70

Thanks for the support and sweet comments; they really do help. 🥰 Took the dogs for a short walk last night, and that went well. Only a small “twinge” about halfway through. PT should help this morning, especially since it’s supposed to rain here later. I’ll take your suggestions to heart, and thanks again for being here for me; you all are the best! 😊🥰

30 Aug 19 by member: laraae

I'm hoping PT helps tremendously. That's good on only the small twinge. Back pain is just horrible to deal with. Hugs

30 Aug 19 by member: tatauu22

Oh I am so sorry! You poor dear. I know how hard it can be. I've struggled my whole life as the result of an accident nearly breaking my neck as a teen. But, this spring I hurt my back and could hardly move or breathe for a week... Then I knew real pain. Thankfully, it got better. Our bodies do repair so much! Good for you for talking about your choices with food you wish you hadn't made. We are here to hear and just care. I hope you feel much, much better soon. Take your time and let yourself heal... Don't push activity more than walking too much!

30 Aug 19 by member: melissatwa

Thank you for thinking of me. 😊 I’m feeling much better now, and did some walking and some light lifting at our rec-plex today for the first time in a week. I’m sorry to hear about your accident, Melissa; I’m glad you recovered. I know old injuries can still flare up, and they’re definitely not fun. 😬

31 Aug 19 by member: laraae

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