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Day 47
Technically, though it's the middle of the night, it is Thursday for me! Today is the 20th anniversary of my older daughter's birth: Happy Birthday to my favorite blue-eyed person! (My other daughter has brown eyes.) Both girls will be home for a long weekend, as their school has no classes on Columbus Day - they are coming for the party.
I went to the hall for the party and I think I have to get centerpieces or decorations or something - probably I'll get some scrapbook pages to lay out on one table, maybe I'll get desserts for centerpieces? Not sure - oh, wait, I know! I have 2 dozen pink plastic flamingos! I will see what I can do to get them to stand up on the tables. Cool. Thanks for reminding me, lol!
Next I have to order the cakes - my mom convinced me to use the supermarket bakery and when I taste-tested one of their cakes, I realized she was right - their cake was yummy. So, that will be easy to get some sheet cakes freshly made for the day, butter frosting and all! I might also get some fancy cheesecakes from Whole Foods too, they make some minis that are beautiful.
Not sure how many people are actually coming but I would have to say roughly 75. Yikes. Everyone is so enthusiastic too, and they all promise to bring me presents - yay for me! Ha, ha, apparently my best friend has spread the word that restaurant gift certificates are what I want and I certainly don't disagree - my roommate and I will never have to cook again! Or buy alcohol, lol!
Work still is a drag. Hate it. I almost don't even want a promotion because then I would have to pay more attention than I do now. That sounds really bad but it is true. I am hoping my class will result in a new job. Of course, I am sure it would help if I did the homework...
I still feel anxious every day about what is going to happen - still getting used to my girls being gone, with being alone without a spouse, still trying to move forward with kindness towards myself. It is really hard. I have a difficult work situation (nights), a house that needs a lot of changes and cleaning and reorganizing, yardwork to take care of, two cars (old ones) to keep in shape, two pets who might end up leaving me because my ex wants them (maybe), money issues, mortgage issues, insurance issues, ex-being-a-jerk issues, but luckily no health issues.
So - I am grateful for:
my health
my children's and family's healths
my job even though it sucks right now
people around me who are honest and open and sympathetic - I would have died without my friends and family and I include all of you supporters in fatsecret!
Hope you all have a great Thursday!
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