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295. I am embarrassed. I am ashamed. I feel like a glutton. I want to be honest, so I posted my weight today, instead of desperately trying to scramble for a "less-embarrassing" weigh-in number for Friday. I overate by thousands of calories every day for days. I ate 3-4x the carbs my body can handle. I cannot call it bingeing because I consciously planned it and consumed it. Food is how I process stress. I have many other tools to use; I choose to use the most destructive one because it is my first/original source of comfort. I saw my weight today and I am shocked, not by the number, but by the realization the number does NOT shock me! I wrote in my journal: STOP. I want to be under 200 lbs, as in 195 or less by Easter (9 months). It's Stampede time here in Calgary and I want to walk around at 175 lbs or less next year. One year. I want to be healthy. Not just "kinda healthier". Today, I start ANEW. Cue Rocky theme! Thank you for reading & supporting me, FS Friends :)
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133.8 kg
Lost so far: 27.2 kg.
Still to go: 0 kg.
Diet followed: Poorly.
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1180 kcal
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Fat: 29.89g | Prot: 68.76g | Carbs: 168.95g.
Breakfast: Cinnamon, Compliments Frozen Raspberries, Pink Lady Apples, Tetley Green Tea, Flaxseed Seeds, Lemon Juice (Canned or Bottled), President's Choice Chia Seeds, Progressive Vegegreens. Lunch: President's Choice Roasted Garlic Hummus, Kraft Fat Free Rancher's Choice, Cucumber (with Peel), Grape Tomatoes, The Laughing Cow Garlic & Herb, Silver Hills Squirrelly Bread. Dinner: Kraft Calorie Wise BBQ Sauce, Carbonated Water Unsweetened, Becel Vegan Margarine, Sweet Red Peppers, Broccoli, Onions, Celery, No Name Frozen Mixed Vegetables, Lilydale Chicken Breast Boneless Skinless, Minute Rice Whole Grain Brown Rice. Snacks/Other: Organika Original Enhanced Collagen Protein. more...
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5110 kcal
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Exercise:
Watching TV/Computer - 12 hours, Washing Dishes - 15 minutes, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 10 minutes, Cooking - 30 minutes, Resting - 3 hours and 5 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Gaining 2.8 kg a Week
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Oh, Liv Lite! I don’t really know what to say at this point…my heart hurts for you. But please know this: There is no place for embarrassment or shame in your situation. And the fact that there are even words like “gluttony” and the like, is an absolute travesty and another example of victim blaming. (We are sure good at that, aren’t we?😡)
Eating disorders, and their ensuing problems, are finally being recognized as a medical condition, in which “self-control” plays NO part. You wouldn’t be embarrassed or ashamed if you had diabetes, or a broken leg, would you? This is no different!
You have suffered, and are suffering, quite enough already. Please…don’t add to that by beating yourself up, too!
We are here to support your struggles and celebrate your successes. Together as a family, as a community, as a team, we can beat this thing and win this battle. Take courage! We can do this! 💕❤️💕
13 Jul 21 by member: grammalaura
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Liv Lite, you are so inspiring with your honesty and expression of emotions. Thank you for sharing, some of us have been there and done that (and got the Tshirt) too many times. There is always hope and a place to turn things around 💜
13 Jul 21 by member: pptreo
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There is no need to feel anything negative LivLite, as it was said, been there, done that, have the stretch marks to prove it. You are a wonderful person who supports all of us 100% , just as we support you. You have a wonderful life outlook, caring nature. You can do this, we all believe in you 🙏👍
13 Jul 21 by member: 49thstreetbaker
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Liv! We all have downtime. And theres no shame here, The FS comunity is pretty awesome and I think we all appreciate your motivational messages! So of coarse we support you when things get rough. Also its a good goal and you can do it. :) You got this. & as always Grammalaura hammers home the bottom line and support from all of us. :) sorry was interrupted a bunch typing this so I hope its coherrent. lol
13 Jul 21 by member: LostMyWeightSomewhere
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You're honest and you put yourself out there with no pretentions. I see nothing here to be ashamed of. In fact it's very inspiring. Try not to think of setbacks as failures but as part of a difficult journey of ups and downs. This is not a race or a competition. You are doing this to be healthy and be the best you can be. Your honesty tells me you're sincere and you have the right attitude to succeed. That alone tells me you're going to meet your goals and more.
13 Jul 21 by member: troutymctrouttrout
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I love your honesty and it is inspiring as other people have said. Don't be too hard on yourself. Im pretty sure we all have exceeded our calories by far one time or another. Tomorrow is a new day, a new beginning. The weight loss journey is not an easy one, but you got this. We are here to support you, support each other and make it happen! 🙌
13 Jul 21 by member: Marce0112
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So proud of you! Facing the number and even posting it is so difficult. I know i feel the need to cover up my weight gain and only count the times that the numbers go down. I really admire your willpower! This post encouraged me to face my faults! Good luck with your goal!
13 Jul 21 by member: pauline4113
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This entry took SO much courage!! I am proud of you. I understand the last weeks have been a terrible ride for you. We are here to support you. Climb back on the wagon with us, please.
13 Jul 21 by member: Courageous Crocus
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it takes courage to not only own it but say it to others. I admire your honesty. We got your back;re-set and start over. sometimes it takes a few of those before we 'get it'.
13 Jul 21 by member: Ladylinda1
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Just for you I'll order a pizza, fries and coke, gain weight for tomorrow's and post my new weight tomorrow morning. Like that you won't be feeling ashamed of your own weight gain. 😉
13 Jul 21 by member: Rizler
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I am a compulsive gambler. went to Gamblers Anonymous for 5 years. after the 5 years,went and gambled a few times.
the first step in facing an...addiction.. is to admitting it. I also have trouble with portions of food...find the best way For Me to control that is just not to have the food in the house.by removing carbs and sugars,since last july,I lost 25 lb
now I find I gained back 5lb.,yes it's hard.. we are here to support each other,so liv..I now let u in on one of my secrets here.
tomorrows another day dont beat yourself up about it
.just slowly start again...best wishes,live,we are all here. hugs..
13 Jul 21 by member: lamapa515
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I feel your post.
Never give up...you are beautiful 💜
13 Jul 21 by member: MadameRanger
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You have what it takes to succeed
13 Jul 21 by member: Annyson
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hmmm. I agree whole heartedly with everything others have offered in this post. You inspire me and many others. Thinking of you ❤
13 Jul 21 by member: Luna4.0
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On another note, I feel you are a kindred spirit as I also have songs that play through my mind in response to life's experiences. haha. The song that is coming to mind at this moment....We are family, I got all my brothers and sisters with me 🎶 🎵 haha
13 Jul 21 by member: Luna4.0
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Wow you are amazing. I bet you will exceed your goal. Here is something I think about often. “Success isn’t always about ‘Greatness’, it’s about consistency. Consistent, hard work gains success. Greatness will come.” - Dwayne Johnson
14 Jul 21 by member: Missingyou
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The other thing I was thinking. Pizza, Its pretty addictive on its own. I mean even the ingredients like mozarella vrs pizza mozerella, etc are differrent, nevermind the dough, sauce etc. It is theee hardest food to quit from my personal experience going keto. And surving my first cravings for it were milestones. It for me is a trigger food, and as 49th posted about cravings, I still ate more then i liked to get through it, but avoided the pizza. It is addictive, and its even deliverred right to your front door, and it will make you crave more. (at least for me) Its been the bane of my diet attempts in the past. This is just food for thought.
14 Jul 21 by member: LostMyWeightSomewhere
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All the words have been said. I admire your courage and offer you my hand, a lift back into the wagon. Sending love and warm hugs.
14 Jul 21 by member: kitty kat pat
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WOW!!!!! I never expected so many kind words and such feedback!😲 Your support & encouragement has lifted my heart 💗. Thank you, thank you, friends - fam - for your help back onto the wagon, the track, the healthy Path! Had a great day yesterday (Tues), so let's see what 2 more on-track days can bring!!!! Helloooo Friday weigh-in 😊 Hugssss everyone 💟
14 Jul 21 by member: Liv Lite
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I really felt your post, probably because I've had those same feelings & thoughts. Your posts are always motivational to me. I'm here for you.
14 Jul 21 by member: meonadiet
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