Fartblossem's Journal, 14 Apr 19

Okay, I allowed myself to go off the grid after a little frustration from being on a plateau too long. Then my brother got sick and spent nearly four weeks in the hospital before he passed away. We were very close. He was always polite and funny; a great guy. It was really a hard time for the family and I surely miss him. It is still very hard to talk about my loss. I loved him very much. But now I have to get back to taking care of myself. I was not monitoring the food I ate. I just ate. I think if I had just not taken sugar into my body I would have at least maintained a reasonable weight. Instead, I gained. But, I didn't quit and gain it all back as I've done in the past. Life is going to have its frustrations. They will come! I don't have to choose to dive into a chocolate cake or a big bag of M&M Peanuts. But when I do, I want to stop, clean my face up, recover my thoughts and goals and continue on. And I don't want to be thinking that when I do reach my weightloss goals that I can now eat anything I want. So, I can't fail unless I quit. I'm not quitting. I am in training! Changing the way I think about life and food will change my body.

108.9 kg Lost so far: 13.6 kg.    Still to go: 31.8 kg.    Diet followed: Reasonably Well.