Lindart's Journal, 21 Apr 23

Here I am, back again after about a year. I weigh a little more than I did last year at this time (I haven't entered my current weight yet, will do on May 1). I did get to about 185lbs maybe, last fall. I wasn't counting calories at all, but was on Keto, from in the summer. I got hooked on Dirty Keto, but it just isn't sustainable for me. I like my carbs too much and hate trying to make keto carbs like bread and such with strange ingredients that I have to convince myself I like. So than I just went off the wagon, and onto French Women Don't Get Fat. lovely idea, but clearly I am Italian, NOT French! So along comes Christmas and I throw in the towel and say F it, I'm going to enjoy Christmas. And I wasn't cooking this year, so I didn't want to make any trouble, if you know what I mean. I just enjoyed myself. And then my birthday a week later, and then January where I was sick most of the month not paying attention to what I was eating and didn't care. April rolls around and I seem to care again, also still recovering from about 3 bad colds over the rest of the winter. I did start to exercise a bit during the healthy times and started doing Body Groove which I love. But then got very sick again, now on Prednisone and "aggressive rest". But I am counting calories again before my jeans don't fit anymore. So I don't really care what my goal weight is anymore, as long as I like how I look and I feel good. Goal weights are just numbers. I don't look terrible now, not like I did when I started years ago, but I'm not yet totally happy with how I look. And I'm more accepting of myself the way I am, not angry with myself, or putting myself down the way I did before. I just want to be healthy and happy and able to play with my soon to be 2-year old granddaughter!

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1545 kcal

Fat: 68.70g | Prot: 78.64g | Carbs: 129.97g.   Breakfast: Dempster's Honey & Oatmeal Bread, Fried Egg, Sealtest Light Cream 5%, Beatrice Unsalted Butter. Lunch: Piller's Summer Sausage, Strawberries, Light Cream, Compliments Unsalted Butter, Hellmann's 1/2 The Fat Mayonnaise, Dempster's Honey & Oatmeal Bread, Sugar, Bick's Sandwich Savers Pickles 50% Less Salt. Dinner: Easy Beef Stew. Snacks/Other: Hummus, Quaker Rice Cakes, Cabernet Sauvignon Wine. more...