FullaBella's Journal, 20 May 14

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Tuesday ~ and I've been AWOL a few days here. Tried to catch up on all of your journals so if I've missed any PM a smack to me. I've been in a horrid manic/depressive funk for days (and still am but thought I'd check in before y'all pooled money for the Ransom). From what I read here I'm not the only one so I guess that's comforting in a sick sort of way. Apparently we're cycling together hormonally despite the absence of the 'other' cycle for me.

Headlines:
Really bad ATF Saturday that restarted the count of 'X many days since a binge and purge'
Wasp Sting on my left bingo wing.. wow that hurt
Sleeping 12 hours at a time three times now
Actually some exercise (bike, walk & treadmill)
Anxiety attack at being invited to "ladies night out" - rejected invitation
Inexplicable depression unwilling to depart despite endless prayers and recognition of gratitude

So that's it. Despite Saturday I'm eating healthy, trying to move about, and either wrap my head around the root of this depression or banish it all together. Am open to either. I've been searching online for images and quotes to inspire me and will share those with y'all as it seems you could use a few too.

What's that quote from 28 days? Together, we're stronger and better. Something like that.

Have a good day. I shall try to do the same.

Bella

View Diet Calendar, 20 May 2014:

2136 kcal

Fat: 120.22g | Prot: 113.10g | Carbs: 152.50g. Breakfast: Kroger Jumbo Eggs, Smucker's Cherry Preserves, Gruyere Cheese, Butter (Salted), Panera Bread Asiago Cheese Bagel, Quaker Old Fashioned Oats, Yoplait Greek 100 Yogurt - Strawberry Cheesecake, Prime Rib, Schwan's California Blend, Schwan's Six Cheese Tortellini, Muir Glen Diced Tomatoes, Schwan's Mediterranean Vegetable Blend, Schwan's Marinated Salmon with Grill Flavor, Whole Milk, Spectrum Organic Virgin Coconut Oil. more...

1852 kcal

Exercise: Sleeping - 24 hours. more...

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Seems like a crazy moon phase, with everyone in a depressed funk. I'm sending out all the positive thoughts and energy I can to everyone!! I have been forcing myself out for a daily 20 minute walk. It has done wonders for my attitude. Sending you great big virtual hugs Bells, hope you feel better and get back out there and socialize!! You are my inspiration to keep going forward!! Love ya girly!! <3

20 May 14 by member: pumakitten

Get out of that funk.... I know you can :-)..... Just because it's stormy... Doesn't mean that you aren't headed for the sunshine :-) x

20 May 14 by member: Sk1nnyfuture

"It's just a bad day, not a bad life." It's hard to give advice when I'm sitting directly across from you on this crazy train. (I wish it really was a train, I'm pretty certain we could make a good time of it)Thank you for your comments, just knowing you're there for me is priceless. Much love, Bella <3

20 May 14 by member: Annabelle3117

I guess everyone has unexplainable bad days. Hope your day turns around and gets better.

20 May 14 by member: SJacqueline

Hugs Bells. Yes lots of us are in a funk. I hope your blues turn to some other sunnier hue real soon. If any one can figure this crap out it's you.

20 May 14 by member: sarahsmum

You are too amazing to be down about yourself so whatever it is I hope passes real soon (go away funk cloud!). And yes I was about put out an APB for Bella. I’m happy you are back in any form. Get some meditation in place, deep breathe, and release your anxiety. You are going to be ok. We are here for you if you need us. ♥

20 May 14 by member: ChicaLean

Love the photos. Especially the one about 10 chocolate cakes. I so greatly appreciate your comments, advice and support on my journals. Let's hope this is just some brief lunar cycle that will be over fast!

20 May 14 by member: 2ManyCurves

Ahhh. My partner today. Misery loves company.

20 May 14 by member: ClassicRocker

Angel, you and your photos/quotes made my day… as you do every day. This too shall pass & we'll be stronger & smarter from the lessons learned. Thinking of you! xoxox

20 May 14 by member: Ruhu

I didn't see the cartoons. Excellent.

20 May 14 by member: sarahsmum

Bella you are stronger than you think and I know you won't let yourself be beat. I'm not saying whatever is putting you into this funk is not legit, but when the going gets tough, the tough gets going! And, you're definitely one of the toughest, sassiest ladies here on FS. It always starts with making a decision, so make the right decision and give Mushy her happy momma back! :-))

20 May 14 by member: Josie Ann

Awww Bella - I hope the clouds move away quickly x

21 May 14 by member: triaby

Great encouraging words Bella thanks. Dark days are so hard.I hope you get to spend some time in the church pew ( your chaise) and a good massage. Maybe they can pull out some of the pain.

21 May 14 by member: sharonfriz

Wow we are cycling together. Weird. The good thing about us though is we will overcome and thrive! My fudge is gone and no more of that for a long time.

21 May 14 by member: Neptunebch

(((((cyber hug)))))

21 May 14 by member: Deb_N


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