melissatwa's Journal, 29 Feb 20

My little friend joined me for morning coffee, and I am sitting here counting my blessings. Warning... this might get long. I am thankful for a warm lap and good coffee. The things for which I am seriously thankful are that at this particular moment all my kids are safe. They are in good relationship with me, their dad, and each other. Is there any blessing greater than that? It hasn't always been so,and I don't know if it will always last. But, for this moment, things are beautiful. I feel so strong and healthy, and that is a total change for me. Years and years of hating how I looked and felt have melted away with the fat that burdened me. I am so thankful... thankful from the bottom of my heart for the dear people here who have and are supporting me and believing in me. I am still finding my way and making mistakes and trying to figure out how maintaining my fitness and weight will be accomplished going forward for the years to come. I have hope and I am absolutely determined to keep at this forever. This is really, really strange for me to say, but I am learning to love me. I was raised and have lived to always put myself last. I was to wear myself out in service for others and never think of myself. Now I am thankful that I know I deserve the time I spend on myself going to the gym or walking or running. I've given and given and given, and now there is time for me. With a lighter heart and body, I am more able to live for others still! Anyway, so much for my rambling. I feel really odd saying all this, but it is on my heart this morning. May we all be thankful for where we have come, what we have, and that no matter our situation, we have the opportunity NOW to make better choices.

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Beautiful lines, Melissa. Thanks for sharing them with us. 
29 Feb 20 by member: EvaSieteTres
So looking forward to seeing you tomorrow!! Blessings to you and your family ✌🏽❤️❤️ 
29 Feb 20 by member: CMC444
No rambling at all just a beautiful declaration of your love for yourself. I've been there too, but for different reasons. I wanted to be liked so badly I was losing myself trying to please others. And you know what, no one ever appreciated it. So now I am learning to like me and everyone else can kiss my grits! good job my friend, keep at it. 😉💖  
29 Feb 20 by member: iderminio
Melissa, that was such an inspiring post. It is your time to be first. By taking this huge step, it becomes easier to take care of others. Your spirit is definitely shining through and I love your sharing this with each of us. I believe you are a true friend, even though we've never spoken or met. ❣️❣️❣️  
29 Feb 20 by member: Erquiaga
Great post!! My kids love me, their dad,we love them and I too hope this lasts forever. Don’t you wish life had a pause button sometimes? Other days, I wish there was a rewind and others, a fast forward button. But none of these exist. We just make the best of every day and deal with things as they come. Keep working at it Melissa, practice makes perfect!! ❤️❤️🙏🙏🥰🥰 
29 Feb 20 by member: wifey9707
Oh Melissa, beautiful thoughts shared by a beautiful lady. So happy for you. ❤ 
29 Feb 20 by member: Becc@
Thank you, Eva! CMC444, it is going to be so great to meet you in person. Here we only get a little window into someone's heart, but I get the strong feeling you are a wonderful woman. Iderminio, Thank you! And, thank you for sharing. What a journey life is for us.  
29 Feb 20 by member: melissatwa
Love your rambling! And love your cat! And I love your new healthy mindset! A lot of us are raised to deny our own needs first! However, it's like the emergence exercise instruction on a plane: you are told to put the oxygen mask over your own face first before you should help others with their mask. 
29 Feb 20 by member: silkian
Erquiaga, I am on my computer, but imagine about a million hearts here! I so long to meet you one day. Thank you for caring and really impacting my life!!!! Wifey, Yes! I so agree with the pause, rewind, fast forward buttons I wish we could have. Thank you for all your encouragement and support in every way! Oh, Becky! Thank you, you dear heart! I know you have so much going on and much to distract you. Thank you for being you and being my friend. I'm praying for you and your mom. 
29 Feb 20 by member: melissatwa
You sound like one exception woman! God Bless! You’re on the right track! Keep up the good work! Love always trumps Hate! Stay the way you are!... and don’t backtrack for anything and anyone! Stay true to yourself! 💙👵🤗💙 
29 Feb 20 by member: 2potato
Correction! Lol 😆 I meant “Exceptional Woman “ LoL 😂 sorry 😐 to everyone who read my stuff! Lol 😆 I’m Italian and I guess I tend to write the same way I speak! LOL 😂 Sorry 😐..... LoL 😝🤪🙂 
29 Feb 20 by member: 2potato
Yes, to all of this! 
29 Feb 20 by member: Egull1
Beautiful. May you enjoy all the blessings you worked hard for.  
29 Feb 20 by member: Zigouna
It’s great to see your story of coming into your own! So many people lose weight on here and find their better selves. Amazing! 
29 Feb 20 by member: love2educate
Silkian, I love my Mr Cat too! Thank you! Yes, I know we are supposed to care for our needs, it is a lifelong lesson I think! 2potato, you are so sweet! Thank you for your encouragement! I love that you are Italian!!!! Chris, for a dude who doesn't show his serious side to us very much, that is seriously appreciated. I am trying so hard to find balance in every area of life. Egull and Zigouna, thank you for understanding! Love2! We are all in this together aren't we!? Just trying to find what we are meant to be!  
29 Feb 20 by member: melissatwa
Your friend looks a lot like mine, tabbies have such pretty markings 
29 Feb 20 by member: gz9gjg
gz9gjg, his mama was a maincoon and father a bengal. A classic tabby, his sides have wild, swirl patterns from his bengal genes. What a crazy, fun critter! Some friends bought two kittens, and decided to give one to my oldest son. Best cat!  
29 Feb 20 by member: melissatwa
beautiful! 
29 Feb 20 by member: lydium
Awww!!! The message and your little friend touched my heart! Melissa! 💕💕💕 
29 Feb 20 by member: jengetfit123
Melissa, gosh. You have such a beautiful mind. Every word was heartfelt (and so very familiar). You are truly blessed. Coming from a line of women (in my family) who place themselves last to take care of family and friends, I totally adopted that exact mindset. I rejoice with you for taking care of ourselves. Its an enormous sense of freedom, confidence and self love. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I loved them! Oh and your kitty too :) 
29 Feb 20 by member: kissangelgirl

     
 

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