FullaBella's Journal, 03 Dec 19

Transformation Tuesday?

I really admire everyone’s transformation sharing. It has inspired me to be brave and share mine.

Even though I didn’t return to FatSecret until January it has been a year since the Doc scared the bejeezus out of me enough to try to improve my health. Again. I was making small changes but coming back here has been made it much easier as I get so much inspiration and support from you all.

But then I started sorting through old photographs and thought ‘well, which two do I choose?’ as this weight loss has been an issue for decades. I’ve shared here before that I have lost & regained massive amounts of weight several times over the years.

So this really isn’t a ‘transformation’ photo as much as it’s a ‘this is what an eating disorder looks like’ photo.

There is a photo missing from between 2001 & 2011 (around 2006) when I lost over 120 lbs. Up and down the scale over decades.

For the record, I’m not proud of this. I’m just being honest about it.

Is this supposed to inspire anyone? I don’t know. Maybe it will .. to show.. ‘Never give up trying?’

Will THIS be the time I fix it forever? I don’t really know. I hope so. Hope, I hope, I hope. All I can say is ‘Stay tuned’ as I am my own personal cliffhanger.

It’s taken every ounce of nerve I have to even post this.

PS: Yes, I know, there’s an extra ‘97 photo but that’s of me holding my firstborn grandson in my arms and I think that deserves an extra slot.


View Diet Calendar, 03 December 2019:
1722 kcal Fat: 93.80g | Prot: 143.62g | Carbs: 80.16g.   Breakfast: Premier Nutrition Clear Protein Drink, Land O'Lakes Mini Moos Half & Half Creamers, Coffee. Dinner: Jalapeno Peppers , Wright Brand Naturally Applewood Smoked Sliced Bacon, Cream Cheese , Great Value Pepper Jack Cheese, Nature's Place Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast, Baby Spinach, Kraft Finely Shredded Parmesan Cheese, Mushrooms, Butter (Salted), Cooked Salmon, Green Giant Steamers Broccoli, Cauliflower, Carrots & Cheese Sauce. Snacks/Other: Atkins Snack Triple Chocolate Bar, Jell-O Sugar Free Dulce De Leche. more...
2132 kcal Exercise: Sleeping - 24 hours. more...

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Bella, I am inspired. ❤️❤️❤️ 
03 Dec 19 by member: Erquiaga
Lovely pictures Bella. I like the one where you are in the driver's seat. You have been on a journey. It is inspiring because so many of us share these ups and downs. So happy that you decided to work towards better health!!! 
03 Dec 19 by member: liv001
😍 
03 Dec 19 by member: dlewis1234
I love these. All of them. Don’t ever give up my Bella beans! Never! You are inspiring us not to give up even if we regain over and over. Love to you!!!!!! 💕💕💕 
03 Dec 19 by member: wifey9707
👏👏👏👏👏 You are amazing for sharing your journey and taking your health seriously!! 🦖💕🔔🌈✨❣️ 
03 Dec 19 by member: adultosaur
Erq, Liv, DL and Wifey - thank you.  
03 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
wow.... 
03 Dec 19 by member: wannabhealthier
Bella, you are getting it done! And thank you fir sharing and always being honest. Your posts are always encouraging. 🙋‍♀️❤👍 
03 Dec 19 by member: Becc@
Adult, Becc & Wannabe - thank you.  
03 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
It takes courage to share a difficult personal journey. I think you are inspiring.  
03 Dec 19 by member: EvaSieteTres
My hope is that this will encourage someone here to not give up. I always WISH I'd paid more attention each time because I'd go 'oh, it's only 5lbs..' and then it was 10, 20 and before I knew it .. back up. So the only advice I can offer is 'be kind to yourself but pay attention... do something at 5lbs". And THAT is only if it's real weight..not like that 6lb water weight jump after a day of high physical exertion.  
03 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
Eva - thank you. I want to be as brave as so many others have been here.  
03 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
🤗🤗 I love this♥️♥️💜💚 so inspiring 
03 Dec 19 by member: jcmama777
You are such a beautiful woman, Bella!! Thank you so much for sharing your journey. You are much much braver than I am. 
03 Dec 19 by member: juliejbird
JC & Julie - thank you both. So much. I'm trying. 
03 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
You’re really a model of encouragement. NEVER GIVE UP!! ❤️💕❤️💕 
03 Dec 19 by member: adultosaur
Adult - thank you. I WANT this to be the time I DON'T give up paying attention. I look at these and think how it just happened so blindly. So effortlessly.  
03 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
I WANT to be the person who gets genuinely concerned at 2lbs and regains focus. I used to listen to those folks and think, "oh, blow me... " when they'd comment about 10lbs.  
03 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
Looking at this is making it hit home - how fast & easy it is for me to regain everything I lost. I'm going to work very hard to not lie to myself anymore. 
03 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
"So this really isn’t a ‘transformation’ photo as much as it’s a ‘this is what an eating disorder looks like’ photo". I have never thought of this. It goes for my photos too. 
03 Dec 19 by member: Tassos67

     
 

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