I’m sorry for your predicament. I love your sense of humor! You’ll conquer whatever challenge is in front of you. I can tell you have the courage to do it!
27 Mar 19 by member: love2educate
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Hang in there, peeper! Just take some deep breaths and maybe a nice relaxing bath? Sleep on it and you can figure out who to call tomorrow. Hoping it is nothing, dear.
27 Mar 19 by member: jengetfit123
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@Peeperjj, I was about to sign off when I caught your post. I find that writing helps me get out some of the "crazies" that sometimes bounce around in my head, so I can relate a bit to where you're coming from. I hope it has helped you move on from a difficult day, what with your parents' and stepdad's birthdays and the worries about your health. Do what you need to do to get what you need from your doctors. I know it's never easy. I hope tomorrow will be better...
27 Mar 19 by member: Miraculum
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Please don't put off find out what it is. I understand, I've put off things I shouldn't have many times. Take care of yourself. :)
27 Mar 19 by member: LZenn
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Perhaps you need to see a social worker/ therapist soon.. to help with all these tough emotions.. also Samaritans hotline ( 212-673-3000) can help Now with these feelings you are having. It takes time to get a professional appointment with a therapist, if your doctor can’t refer you quickly, please just go to your local ER center and tell them how you are feeling. Support is extremely important for you right now.
28 Mar 19 by member: famingo21
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Thanks everyone. @ famingo. I actually have a counseling appt every Wednesday at 10 am lol. Part of my depression therapy is meds and tak therapy. If I want the meds I must talk, if I want to talk I have to take the meds. Works for me!
These feelings come about as the day ends. It’s easy to stay upbeat when the sun is shining even though it ended up rainy today lol. I’ve tried adjusting bedtime but it doesn’t matter if I go to bed at 9pm, 3am or anytime in between. These thoughts and worries will come about from bedtime until I sleep. Took a nap today and with these thoughts, sleep won’t come soon.
I’ll call someone tomorrow or Monday. I just don’t know the right dr to call. I’ll probably start with my oncology nurse. She technically doesn’t talk to me as I don’t have active cancer but she’s pointed me in the right direction before. I think an ultrasound would be best and quickest if done here. Oncologist is 2.25 hours away and likes things done there. Multiple trips that distance with kids or finding somewhere for them to go isn’t very fun. If I can do it here then it’s half an hour to the hospital. My oncologist dislikes scans. She wouldn’t give me one for daily headaches or the rash/eczema I’ve had for months. I need more signs lol. My local dr wouldn’t do scans without the oncologists approval. New dr is in the same office and I’m sure she will say the same. But being a woman I may be able to convince her I need one. It’s not like this would be harmful. They had me do monthly and some biweekly ultrasound with my last baby because they thought something was wrong (she’s perfectly healthy other than deaf for the first few days. Hearing just came back on day 3-4 after her birth).
28 Mar 19 by member: peeperjj
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“Being that annoying a-hole’. Are you saying I can be an annoying ass?? Have we met in real life?? You know me so well! Lol. But yeah, I normally give in as they are more knowledgeable. However my mom died after being cancer free for 5-6 years. Pretty sure she had cancer again but refused to say anything on the matter. I’ll bring that up and if necessary, ask for a referral to another oncologist and another family dr. I’m a bit sick of them acting like I should be carefree and never worry. Shit happens. People have recurrences. A simple yearly ultrasound would give me peace of mind. Every 6 months is what insurance will allow and that would be better as TNBC is highly aggressive and fast growing. Wouldn’t peace of mind be worth it with something that’s not harmful and I’m willing to pay for? Asshats lol. Drs not y’all! Anywho, getting it out helps. Any of you happen to be a doctor that would like... (what I said above) hehe joking. Sorta... 😝
28 Mar 19 by member: peeperjj
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Also, tnbc is too aggressive for me to wait long. A day or two, a week at most. This cancer can kill in months not years like slow growing cancers. The first time I had shoulder pain so bad I cried. I believe that was my body saying something was wrong since it was literally a few inches from my tumors. No real signs this time but I’m listening to my body this time around. If it’s cancer then I’ll kick it’s ass again. But man would I/am I gonna hate gaining the weight again and I would/will miss my hair again lol. Finally got it in a style I like after 2 years. Although... I liked the 1/4” buzz cut too. Soft and cool but didn’t really go with my jewelry, my clothes or my face for that matter 🤪🤣.
28 Mar 19 by member: peeperjj
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If your oncologist won't order a scan, you need a new oncologist. This is nothing to play around with, you need to know what is going on. 💖
28 Mar 19 by member: shirfleur 1
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Hope this helps (: https://youtu.be/07MQ2HI8B7k
28 Mar 19 by member: LibraLady1976
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https://youtu.be/YgPRRFw_N1k
28 Mar 19 by member: LibraLady1976
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Damn, peeperjj. Here’s hoping it’s just a lipoma...
28 Mar 19 by member: laraae
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Hi Sweetie! Thinking of you today. Agree with Shirfleur 1 in general. Of course you’re probably on a schedule for scans but yeah. They better do one now. Good call that “Self surgery” is not the answer. Annoying that you’d almost prefer that to getting on THEIR schedule again.
God bless you in any case.
28 Mar 19 by member: Tash23
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Oh my...get it checked girl! You know the process and what to do! Stay positive. Be encouraged. I’ll be praying for you!❤️🙏
28 Mar 19 by member: wifey9707
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Peeper, sorry you are going through this and hope you get some good answers soon. So important to get it checked out. Not good that doctors drag their feet. If they do, yes, make a fuss! Like Chris said, wish there was something we could do. ❤
28 Mar 19 by member: Becc@
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I am sorry about the situation you are going through. Take care of your self, find a doctor soon, 🙏💕 please don't wait until Chris gets his medical degree 🤣
28 Mar 19 by member: Keilin_4
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Good morning, thinking about you today, peeper! Hope you got some rest. Now call that oncology nurse, tell her you need a scan asap, and tell her how grateful you are that she is a B who makes things happen! Seriously, go get checked. Hoping it is nothing. We are behind you!
28 Mar 19 by member: jengetfit123
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(((((hugs))))) you are NOT alone. We are all here for you.
28 Mar 19 by member: kclab
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HURRY Chris! I won’t need you and your degree by next week I think. The oncology nurse called me back after I left a message. She double checked my symptoms and said she would catch the oncologist between clinicals and appointments. She will call me back this afternoon or tomorrow morning.
28 Mar 19 by member: peeperjj
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Normally she would send a patient to their breast surgeon. However mine retired last fall. I think they may be able to get me in to see the new surgeon in that office. Not sure yet. She said occasionally they would send patients to their family doctor. I’m not sure what they’ll do.
28 Mar 19 by member: peeperjj
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