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Rain, thunder, and lighting; roll across my part of the state tonight. And it's given me time to do a bit of reflection on where I'm at. Not just with this diet but life in general. I have a habit of turning off the tv and just listening to the storms as they blow through. It's good for thinking. Especially when you have a tin roof like I do.
I'm relieved at the weight I have lost already and knowing your in the battle is really already half of it already, right? So, the next battle plan is keeping on track with what I'm doing already. No junk food. No sweet tea. Ugh. And saying yes to fruits and veggies. And being nicer to the me I am now. No, I am not where I want to be. But, thank God I am not who I used to be! I showed a Halloween picture of me from 2013 to a co-worker of mine. I was strawberry shortcake. I had made a tool-skirt, and hand painted my own strawberry shirt and hat. Put my hair in pig tails and called it mine. The side note to that as I was looking at that picture and my co-worker yells my name and says "OH MY GOSH, YOUR FACE!! YOU'VE LOST SO MUCH WEIGHT!!!!" I had never thought about it, never looked long enough to compare. Never gave it a second thought to what I was / am. It was my face, the face I looked at in the mirror every morning. I had gotten used to it. Frankly, even though I had a smile on in the photos, It was really just too hard to look at. It was just too painful. But, I did it any way. hoping I would see a little bit of what she did.
It's amazing what 20 pounds will do. How 20 pounds off makes you feel. Emotionally, and physically. A little more daring, a little more confident. Even lipstick looks different now. My double chin isn't as noticeable, now as it was then. My cheeks don't look near as chipmunk-ish. Even my wrists are a little more narrow. Hands a little more dainty. Granted, if you met me now and didn't know me then you would have no clue. You wouldn't know how hard I've worked or how many tears I've shed. You wouldn't know how much I want my insides and my out sides to match or what I hope to be. All you would see is a happy, overweight ginger. With "such a pretty face". Everything else will take time.
And that's something that all of us have. Time.
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1135 kcal
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Fat: 41.39g | Prot: 43.29g | Carbs: 149.95g.
Breakfast: Simple Truth Meatless Breakfast Patties, Pillsbury Grands! Homestyle Buttermilk Biscuits, Bananas. Lunch: McDonald's Fruit 'n Yogurt Parfait, McDonald's French Fries (Small), McDonald's McDouble. more...
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