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Vacation was amazing. We Went to Kentucky, W. Virgina, Virgina, Maryland, Delaware, N. Carolina, S. Carolina, Tennessee and back home to Arkansas, all in a 10 day span. We ate what we call "off grid." Meaning no chain restaurants, or at least as few as possible. Which ended up in some MAJOR good food. But NONE of it "good" for me. And just because you eat a salad doesn't mean it's good for you. It's really just junk with lettuce. And just because there's lettuce doesn't make it right.
I know I could have done better, I KNOW IT. I had no accountability. I stepped away from my check in, my counter, your words and blogs and Paid the price. I gained, not just a little, but a lot. I am almost back to where I started. Now, I'm sitting here, back at where I started and I feel ashamed. I feel like I abandoned everything I worked for. This weigh in has been a MAJOR WAKE UP CALL. Mercy!!! What have I done?!?!?! Was the only thing I could say to my self. I disregarded myself, I thought that it wasn't going to make a difference. I have let myself down. I worked SO hard to hit my goal of being below 100 lbs to lose before I went on vacation and made it then I frittered it away, for not a Damn thing. Vacation, is not more important than my health and life happiness. It is not more important than keeping my word, to myself and my friends, it is not more important than a beach or a bathing suite.
Vacation is not more important than ME. And I treated it like it was. As if it was some greater force than who or what I am. Vacation doesn't happen with out me. If I don't allow it in my life it doesn't happen. So, why is it more important than me?!?!
I know the stats. Some of this is water weight. I didn't drink as much water as I normally do. And I ate way too much beef jerky and corn chips, all salt and all water retainers. I had way more sweet tea than what I am used to and more carbs than a bread factory. I laughed, I cried, I walked a 4 mile trail next to a river, and Had the most beautiful stroll on the beach a girl could ask for. I have a good pound of sea shells from the Atlantic, that I am going to put in a jar as my souvenir. (It's the best kind if you ask me.)
And today, I am starting fresh. I am back on the mountain. I know how to get where I am going and I will get there. I know what must be done and I know what I did wrong. Hopefully, I wont make the same mistake twice.
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140.6 kg
Lost so far: 0.9 kg.
Still to go: 59.0 kg.
Diet followed: Not Applicable.
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Gaining 2.3 kg a Week
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