clairsheart's Journal, 03 Feb 20

I must be crazy. it's 43 degrees here and I'm on my patio. I love sitting out here every morning listening to the birds and nature.
I found a less expensive place to live close to my granddaughter's. I have an appointment at 10:30 to go see it. I just hate moving. it's taken me 2 years here to feel safe and build my Serenity place on my porch. I'm weighing the pros and cons cause my lease is up next month. I lost my financial help from the state. I have to pay outrageous prices for my psych meds or I would not have even thought of moving. I'm just venting cause stress and worry can cause alot. I've done all the apps for help and they all turned me down. who new retirement would be so stressful. I wish I would have saved when I was younger but I was foolish and too busy feeding 4 kids.
Anyway, I'm looking for a solution at least and not resorting back to my old default of alcohol.
Sorry for being inappropriate.
71.0 kg Lost so far: 36.0 kg.    Still to go: 3.0 kg.    Diet followed: Reasonably Well.

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1082 kcal Fat: 63.31g | Prot: 62.32g | Carbs: 68.45g.   Lunch: Calavo Avocado, Lettuce, Savory Collection Ranch Dressing, Tuna Salad, Great Value Fancy Mexican Cheese Shredded. Dinner: Progresso Italian Style Bread Crumbs, Blue Diamond Almond Breeze Unsweetened Chocolate Milk, Member's Mark Boneless Skinless Chicken Thighs, Pero Family Farms Mini Sweet Peppers, Member's Mark Broccoli Florets. Snacks/Other: Breyers CarbSmart Fudge Bar. more...
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A good place is important. Hope the appointment goes well 
03 Feb 20 by member: liv001
Sending prayers for a good and safe place that’s budget friendly...🙏🏼🤞🏽👍🏽 
03 Feb 20 by member: CMC444
It's good to look at all the options. Moving isn't fun but it does bring you closer to your granddaughter and less stress if it's a good fit. You're doing great! Keep reaching out. Feeling heard is priceless and keeps you healthy. 
03 Feb 20 by member: newnormal
I hope you find a wonderful and safe place friend with a beautiful patio or porch that you can enjoy♥️ moving is stressful but being close to your granddaughter is so wonderful 💗🥰 Good luck at your appointment. You are strong clairsheart, you won’t go backwards you will keep it moving forward 💜💚 
03 Feb 20 by member: jcmama777
My heart bleeds for you 
03 Feb 20 by member: Chestnut63
Oh I'm sorry for things being stressful and difficult for you right now. I'm glad you shared. I'll be thinking of you and praying things work out far better than you are imagining right now. Family is pretty much the most important thing, and I'm so glad you have yours.  
03 Feb 20 by member: melissatwa
I moved from Wyoming to Mississippi and let me tell you, that was the best move I ever made. Just strap your boots on and start wrapping things up. You know you gotta move. Soon as the Uhaul gets there, throw some gloves on and start hauling what you can keep and make the adjustments. I maintain a positive attitude in times of stress. I remain aqueous. Things change, so I make adjustments all the time. You will be fine. 
03 Feb 20 by member: jaimejay
"Inappropriate"? NOT AT ALL, {{{{CLAIRSHEART}}}}! I'm so sorry that you're enduring all this stress. I moved a lot until I remarried in 2008 -- more than 30 addresses between ages 17 and 54. I know exactly how you feel about the prospect of moving again. Money issues in retirement and some regret about spending/saving choices earlier in life: I know about that, too. You've done so well with your weight loss and stopping the use of food and/or alcohol as coping patterns. Reaching out for support at a stressful time is the *ultimate* "appropriate" action. Please, never feel otherwise. Your FS friends *want* to be there for you. It's wonderful that you are considering the option to live closer to your granddaughter. Please keep us up to date on your plans and progress. Sending prayers! 
03 Feb 20 by member: Miraculum
Omg first off I want to thank everyone of you's for your inspiration, experience and strength. Yea yesterday was a flop. I went there with any open mind and hopefully. The lady was nice but she told me point blank they only had 4 downstairs 1 bedrooms on their property and the waiting list was 4 months at a time. I would have to pay 100. To be put into the list and 85 for the app fee. If nothing opened up in four months, I would have to pay the 85 again and so on until something opened. Then she hands me a packet of paperwork. I m sure by the look on my face she could tell I was almost ready for tears. I told myself, maybe God doesn't want you there so move on and that's what I did. I went to my AA meeting and the home and made lunch and then read my book. Life is hard. But I don't give up 
04 Feb 20 by member: clairsheart
Clair please keep fighting. ❤ 
04 Feb 20 by member: Chestnut63
Miraculm hunny thank you for your support. I don't know what I would do if I had to do this all by myself. That's why I love this site because all of us share what's really going on and isn't it the life situations that caused me to self destruct? But now I've learned how to find solutions to problems that come up whether it be from you all, my AA family or my God. I learned that sometimes doing nothing is taking action. I love you all and thank you ❤️ 
06 Feb 20 by member: clairsheart

     
 

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