|
Another small loss but the trend is in the right direction so all is good. I was on track for a bit more but I went 'sushi' crazy last night. I love sushi and it is so easy to over eat it. My 11 year old grandson was like a vacuum just eating everything in sight -- he was eating even faster than I was!
Right now I am surrounded by wildfires. The smoky conditions are a constant reminder of how close the fires are. The last evacuation was 30 miles from me. The people on standby alert for evacuation are 20 miles from me. There are two fires one to the north and one to the northwest each one is moving in this direction. I haven't packed yet but I am keeping a close watch on it.
My daughter lost her home 3 years ago to a wildfire. It was devastating on a level I didn't imagine until it happened to her. The long drawn out insurance claims, the frustration of having absolutely nothing and having to start over is hard to express.
With the fires in the area, I have imagined what it would be like to lose my home. Since my husband's death, I have anchored myself to my home -- cleaning the yard, carting stuff to the dump, going through my cupboards, fixing the buildings-- as a way of dealing with my grief. This has been our home for 35 years. So much of both of us is reflected in the choices we made in fixing our place up. I fear the grief for my husband and the grief of losing our home would be devastating. I keep reminding myself that the fires are a good distance away and I will likely ride this out but the fear does creep in.
In the meantime, I will just carry on with what I am doing and trust that all will be fine.
|
100.2 kg
Lost so far: 21.6 kg.
Still to go: 23.0 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
|
|
1231 kcal
|
Fat: 40.24g | Prot: 90.10g | Carbs: 132.46g.
Breakfast: Poached Egg, Yam, Whole Milk, Honey, Tea (Brewed), Kombucha. Lunch: Sandwich, Seafood Soup with Potatoes and Vegetables. Dinner: Beef or Meat Gravy, Tomatoes, Beef Chuck (Blade Roast, Trimmed to 1/4" Fat), Cauliflower Rice. Snacks/Other: 365 Greek Yogurt Plain. more...
|
|
2832 kcal
|
Exercise:
Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 1 hour, Dance (slow step) - 20 minutes, Stretching (yoga) - 30 minutes, Sleeping - 9 hours, Weight Training (moderate) - 13 minutes, Resting - 12 hours and 57 minutes. more...
|
Losing 0.2 kg a Week
|
 Comments
I cannot believe we are getting fires this early and smoke. My in laws live in a fire area and they are getting consumed with thinking about what if.... What can we do. So sorry for your daughter.
01 Jun 19 by member: liv001
|
01 Jun 19 by member: LZenn
|
I am keeping you and your neighbors in my thoughts, I have been fire evacuated before and it sucks. Thankfully I have never had my home burn, but living in a fire area can be really scary.
01 Jun 19 by member: frequency7
|
Prayers for rain and comfort. You have already done so much. Hoping for a good outcome for you on this!
01 Jun 19 by member: lindygirlgree
|
01 Jun 19 by member: eatolive4life
|
Sounds like you are coping pretty well. Where do you live? I live in an area where wild fires are common. Not too far from the Camp Fire in Paradise, Ca last year. I was evacuated a year and a half ago and really haven't recovered from that. I've been thinking of moving, but I love my house. I hope your daughter is doing okay after losing her home.
01 Jun 19 by member: Fritzy 22
|
Stay safe. Not even a fire can take away the precious memories you hold on your heart.
01 Jun 19 by member: shirfleur 1
|
Oh Carol, I so hope you don't lose your home. Losing your husband is so much to handle. And yes, I know you “could” handle it, but I hope you don't have to. We don't have control of so many things in our lives. We think we can't handle the tragedy that comes along, but we do. When our son was killed by the drunk driver, it was one of the hardest things I ever handled. When our home was “totaled” by the 1994 Northridge earthquake, the 4 year insurance process was worse than all we lost in the earthquake. Our insurance company was terrible to us, and we still live in a mess. My husband won't let me pay for help to fix it. He was in construction, and they say the shoemakers children go without shoes. It wasn't as bad as losing our son. Ours wasn't as bad as your daughters because she lost everything. I still had the broken house, my furniture, and clothes. I am so grateful to have my house, even though it is still broken. It means a lot to me, probably because we have lived here for 48 years. We have been evacuated for fire danger about 4 or 5 times.
I understand having fear. My husband has so many health problems I fear losing him after almost 58 years of marriage. I can't imagine living alone, as an old woman with health problems myself. I say: I don't “live” in the fear, but it does raise it's ugly head sometimes. The Lord carries me a lot of the time. I will pray for your (and yours) safety.
02 Jun 19 by member: Snowwhite100
|
I hope the wildfires go away. thinking of you🤞
02 Jun 19 by member: jessabridge4444
|
Thank you to all of you for your kind support. I live in northern Alberta, Canada. We are in a boreal forest area. I have lived here for close to 40 years and the fires have never been so close to us or to populated areas until recent times. We don't have a lot of population in general so missing those areas and still having a lot of fires isn't inconceivable! These last few years has been different. There was a big fire in Slave Lake where the majority of the citizens lost their homes and then recently it was the fire at Fort MacMurray which took a huge part of the city. My daughter's fire was a 'one off'. A farmer was burning brush piles miles from her home. The fire got into the muskeg and burned underground for a number of years. Then the fire 'popped' up got into the black spruce and followed the black spruce for a number of miles almost like a wick directly to my daughter's home. The heat was so intense there was truly nothing left not even charred timbers. Everything was ash. The rims of the truck melted off. There was nothing at all to salvage just ashes at the bottom of what was the basement. Through her experience, I know what it could be. She took nearly 4 years to recover her equilibrium, her two children were profoundly affected especially since it was so close to when their father left, and of course the insurance company. Rain is in the forecast.. may all be well.
02 Jun 19 by member: 59Carol
|
Please God bring them rain!
02 Jun 19 by member: caraken
|
Unbelievable that the fires r so close. Will be thinking of you and hoping they r contained.
02 Jun 19 by member: justdoit!
|
Unbelievable that the fires r so close. Will be thinking of you and hoping they r contained.
02 Jun 19 by member: justdoit!
|
| |
|
|
| |
Submit a Comment
You must sign in to submit a comment. Click here to sign in.
|
|
|
|