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Since my “Depths of Despair” post (which was about Thursday, but I posted it on the “Christian Community” Group Forum on Saturday), things have been going some better. I have tried not to dwell on the LOSS of the $500. I was doing alright until this morning, when I told my son about it, and once again “fell apart.”
I think it just got to me again because I was ALREADY upset with myself for my lousy weight-loss results lately! After weighing in at 206.25 this morning. Basically, I’m right back where I was THREE WEEKS ago on February 5th. It is SO frustrating that my husband, who (at least 2x a week) eats burgers, and fries, and (daily) has applesauce or cereal, has lost MORE weight than I have!
The scale had been showing about 206 most every day last week (one day 207), but I hadn’t been recording it, because I was SURE it would go back down before weigh-in on Monday! Well, it didn’t, and right now I feel like, “Just screw it all!”
I made my breakfast of two avocados, cut up (300g), and then I decided to just “screw it” and ate it with TWO servings (26 pieces) of Tostitos Scoops. I am also PLANNING on buying a couple nice juicy naval oranges today, and maybe even going to a salad bar and getting some watermelon & cantaloupe, too! Maybe I’ll even get some freshly baked bread from somewhere, and eat a whole mini-loaf with loads of butter on it. OR, even get a Panera Bear Claw!
In other words, today, I just don’t care! I’m going to eat whatever I want ALL DAY, and wallow in my self-pity. I think I’ll go get that Bear Claw NOW while they still have the nice fresh ones! Matter of fact, I think I’ll go get ALL of my cheat foods right now so I can start indulging as soon as possible!
I don’t use the FS app on my phone, and I’ll be away from my computer, so I’m “safe” from anyone sending me messages telling me not to do it. My mind is made up. I am EVEN tempted to drive through McDonald’s and get a large Diet Coke! (But, I’m having hesitations about that one, because it’s been 57 days since I’ve had one, and I don’t want to start back at Day #1.) The way I’m feeling right now, though, I don’t know that I can even resist that one.
I’ll be back later, and will hopefully come back to my senses at least by the end of the day!
View Diet Calendar, 26 February 2018:
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2683 kcal
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Fat: 162.17g | Prot: 38.55g | Carbs: 274.81g.
Breakfast: Tostitos Baked Tostitos Scoops, Avocados. Lunch: Butter, Olive Garden Breadsticks, Panera Bread Bear Claw Specialty Pastry. Dinner: Butter, Olive Garden Breadsticks, Navels Oranges. Snacks/Other: Pecan Nuts, Danish Pastry. more...
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