Hello FS Friends! Wishing you a wonderful holiday season!
I am struggling. I am not a fan of winter at the best of times and always terrified of walking on snowy-icy sidewalks. This year, that fear has escalated. I was even walking without a stick/cane a week ago because there was no snow. Snow came. I avoided going outside; today I did. I took the quad cane for most support, laced up the boots and went out. People in elevator made fun of my cane, trying to be funny but it wasn't. I walked down sidewalk - not too bad! I even started across in crosswalk but froze. The panic, the fear, the road felt slippery, more than the sidewalk. Tears in eyes, I shuffled back. I walked down block, defeated but tried again at different crosswalk, less traffic. It seemed daunting. More tears. Walked another block then headed home. It was a bit much today but I will try again tomorrow!
I feel humiliated and humbled with these small steps. I feel alone because others don't seem to understand. I will keep trying, for myself, to feel strong and safe to walk on wintery sidewalks. Winter is a long season here! LOL
Just to let you know where I am at. I don't feel like posting much at the moment.
I do wish you a successful week for all your small steps and efforts to keep moving forward! :)
