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I am going out to dinner (a new steakhouse) tonight so while I'll probably see an uptick on the scale in the morning I'm recording it anyway so I'll remember to eat mindfully.
Shopping for the 'hospitality table' snacks yesterday was WEIRD as I've passed that aisle for over a year now. Yeah, I was on it last week in another store as that's the same aisle where they ironically shelve the sugar free pudding but it was so different to be looking AT the snacks to purchase them rather than whizzing past to ignore them.
I'd be thinking 'which of these do I like the least so I won't be tempted' but then wondered if that was the equivalent of giving out raisins on Halloween. So I got 'sweet & salty' stuff. But I didn't rationalize the need to do a quality assurance taste test. I trust the Keebler Elves did that for me.
And yeah, I wondered who may have looked at my cart with the 2 boxes of snacks (coffee cups, etc) and judged 'yep, that's why you're fat.' But I can't worry about that.
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93.6 kg
Lost so far: 26.1 kg.
Still to go: 12.0 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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View Diet Calendar, 07 December 2019:
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1858 kcal
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Fat: 138.81g | Prot: 63.89g | Carbs: 82.26g.
Breakfast: Cafe Escapes Chai Latte, Coffee, Coffee-Mate Sugar Free French Vanilla Liquid Coffee Creamer, Land O'Lakes Mini Moos Half & Half Creamers. Dinner: Butter (Salted) , Cooked Mushrooms, Capital Grille Creme Brûlée , Dinner Rolls , Wright Brand Naturally Applewood Smoked Sliced Bacon, Outback Steakhouse Classic Blue Cheese Wedge Salad, Great American Steak Company Beef Ribeye Steaks, Heavy Cream, Coffee. Snacks/Other: Snack Pack Sugar Free Chocolate Pudding. more...
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Losing 1.9 kg a Week
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Yay!! Down again bella🤗💜💚
07 Dec 19 by member: jcmama777
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Bella...I'm a cart judger sometimes but at least I'm secretive about it. I hate when I see morbidly obese people and then their morbidly obese 10 year old. That upsets me. As far as getting the look...when I was probably 8 years old, someone had taken my sister and me to a buffet. Unsure who or which one. You could make your own dessert and it had the soft serve ice cream. My sister- who was thinner than me - had made a huge sundae and was putting on every topping she could find. I said "why are you putting so much?" And this asshole old lady (who was probably only 55) said - you need to worry about what YOU are eating - not what she's eating. I've never forgotten that. It really hurt my feelings. when I first lost 115# prior to my wedding, I was trying to jog and this guy yells "call the whale patrol" I have been moo-ed at...all kinds of stuff. So yeah... I've dealt with a lot because of my obesity. I
07 Dec 19 by member: davidsprincess
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But at least you had coffee cups. 😉 Plus you don't seem very large to me. Certainly not something that would cause a double take! At my biggest, there were times I'd order two drinks from a drive thru because I got so much food I didn't want them to know if was just for me. So shameful. Oh well. Guess I don't need to take over your post. You're doing an awesome job! One day at a time! ❤️
07 Dec 19 by member: davidsprincess
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Good job Bells! You're thinking about how to do things differently and that's what gets you to succeed. 👍
DP, that was horrible how people behaved towards you! So sorry you came in contact with people like that. You are doing an awesome job with accomplishing your goals. ❤
07 Dec 19 by member: Becc@
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Omg princess. I’d love to meet that asshat of an old lady. That was wrong of her on so many levels.
07 Dec 19 by member: peeperjj
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Princess, that makes me sick to think of how you were treated. I am so sorry.
07 Dec 19 by member: melissatwa
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It wasn’t cake, crack is a toffee/chocolate covered cracker.
07 Dec 19 by member: moopie321
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Hope you enjoyed your steak; that sure sounded good to me. My response to someone making nasty remarks about my weight would be, "Well, I'd rather be fat than mean."
08 Dec 19 by member: shirfleur 1
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Becca, peeper, Melissa...😆 it's ok. thanks girls. I survived. Shirfleur - I have a quick temper so in my old age that probably would be a much better response than what would happen. The mooing guy got the finger. The whale guy was too far away. And 8 year old me would never think of talking back to an adult. But it's people like her who probably rest in my subconscious and make me dislike people in general. Maybe I'll be friendlier wth weight loss. Every year (not kidding) it is a new years resolution along with losing weight...be nicer/friendlier / smile more. Haha. We'll see. Sorry Bella!! I won't say anymore. ❤️😜
08 Dec 19 by member: davidsprincess
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Princess -don't stop! I love your sharing. Many of us have been through this type of public AND private ((family situations)) shaming. It's always helpful to read how we manage to turn it around - like Melissa's old fart - or use it to motivate us to continue whenever we're having a weak moment.
08 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
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And - obviously I pay attention to carts too or I wouldn't have been sensitive to mine. I think I'd just come back here this time and someone posted a judging photo of a strangers shopping cart.
08 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
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I know I've said this before but here it goes again. With each failure & regain, I've learned humility. When I lost a lot of weight in my 30's - even though I didn't do it in a truly healthy way - I was very judging about others carts, intake, etc. I was borderline obnoxious one day when I ALMOST approached a stranger about their cart and how it could be affecting their weight. I thought I had ALL the answers. Yeah, humility, good times.
08 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
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Becca - thank you. I have been doing this in non-food ways lately too and I have to think it's all tying in together. I recognize I've been 'asleep at the wheel' for a few years now... doing things by rote .. I'm sure it's related to depression. I'm - okay, here is the antithesis to my previous comment on humility - I 'am' a fairly intelligent person so it's not that I've completely dumb-assed my way through life. But, I found, I wasn't challenging myself ANYWHERE. I'd just zoned out to TOO many hours of TV binge watching. So the past two weeks I've been making myself REALLY learn about the sewing machine I bought two years ago. I've been changing the feet, learning new stitches, understanding more. And I think it's flowing in & out of the weight loss in a creative way.
08 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
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Moopie - I'm sorry, yes, it was a cracker. I get it now. Crack cracker. It looked delicious.
08 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
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Shir - thank you hon but the meal was substandard. Typing this I feel a bit of guilt compared to people who are truly hungry not 'losing weight' hungry but we all recognize the contrast. I try to only go out for one 'really nice, fancy meal' a month. It was not satisfying for my gourmet goals.
08 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
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Bella, I love that you're learning new things/skills and that you share your insights. Your words of wisdom help me more than you know. I had an incident during the week that I wish I had handled better. It's bound to come up again, namely because it's happened before. I do not want to try to control others behavior, but instead convert my anger into a mature message to the person I am bothered by. I have things and skills to learn too. ❤
08 Dec 19 by member: Becc@
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Sorry your meal was disappointing what a letdown. 😞
08 Dec 19 by member: shirfleur 1
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