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OK, stupid me. Last week was a bust. I know I'm doing wrong I know it not going to help, I know I will say "stupid me" during & later...but it happens STUFF just happens. I again almost said 'oh forget it, forget this stuff, forget the 24/7 workouts, forget life in general, in the respect of ever feeling IT will all work out, (please I am not going to 'off' myself) just tired of thinking things will be ok, will work out, will be a good place for more than 30 min at a time.... OK enough of this pity party, oh gee that is another pet peeve of mine, everyone thinking they have a right to tell me to stop 'my pity party', THEY have no idea of what MY life is about, even if they are HERE and can "SEE" they still have no idea of what is happening to me, and if they think they do and they think they can ADVISE me of what to do or not to do, EKKKKK get away from me. This is my life and sometimes there is SH## STUFF I have to go through just to make it through. I even don't really know WHY this stuff is going on. I'm just tired and have to just get through, just like everyone. OK so last week was a bust, I ask some garbage I should not have and yep gained the weight back, but I am still ME no matter what goes in and out or what OTHERS throw AT me, I am still me. just a tired me. I so need to get away from this.... NOT me, I don't need to get away from ME I just NEED to get away from some STUFF.....I really don't know when that can happen, but there is hope some years away, I just HOPE I survive until then.
take care to ALL
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