LSG417's Journal, 07 May 18

Here's the thing: at 125 you can still be out of shape. I have the goal of getting to 125 also, but I am also planning to be 20% body fat which is more muscular than I was last time I weighed 125. I turned 60 last year. Talking with my cousins who were turning 50 last year talking about losing weight, getting in shape, I had to point out that the sooner you get to "perfect" health, the better. I might even stop at 130 if I get to the desired muscle percentage. My dad was a fitness fanatic, lifted weights 3 times a week and could do a 2-minute plank when he was 81. So now that you have figured out the number on the scale might not be as "bad" as you thought, maybe it's time to add a component that gets you to better health at a higher weight. Good luck - just do what you need to do for motivation! 

be encouraged. stay strong. don't give up on your original dream that you have now set as a goal. If that is the number you want go for it! You can do it! 

Yes you are over thinking it and as one over thinker to another... its a target.. and like any such thing it has to be something that is important to you and thus comfortable in your mind. 120-125 is as good as a target as any and give you something to strive for, keeps you motivated. BUT.. (there is always a butt around).. listen to how your body feels. Yeah 50 is one of those 'milestone' points in life and like you I have no clue what a 50 year old should act like. Keep your target but maybe also the complementary 'obsession' of performance. Can you do the things you could do before when you were at that target point. Hell, can you do the things you could do when you were the age you are in your head? If not, perhaps add those as targets as well. Using myself as an example, there is no difference in my head between me now at 51 and me at 25 (wiser perhaps but not smarter :P) My goal number is 200 which is where I was at back in the day. More importantly I want to get back to being able to do the things (many of them stupid) I was able to do then, allowing for the toll 26 years of stupid things paid by the bod. Bottom line is you are doing good things for yourself so stay focused, stay motivated, you WILL get to where you want to be. Just do your best not to make yourself crazy along the way. 

Yep- over thinking it. 

Thank y'all for your support and encouragement. Abba, I'm definitely no where near being in the "shape" I need to be in. 6 years ago, I was more toned, for sure, but life was drastically different & I had the time to work out every day. It was a way of keeping my sanity while my husband dealt with cancer. As far as actual %, I'm clueless to what I was then and I should research what an achievable goal would be for me now. J, I often wonder if my inability to do certain things now is due to my weight or just age in general. I know I'm not going to get back to 23 year old me (before any sort of weight gain hit), but surely I can get back to what I could do 6 years ago. Continually a work in progress!