blurose411's Journal, 26 Mar 15

Really just don't know what is going on with me these last couple of days. I'm in a funk. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to garden, do chores (who ever wants to do chores, though?), journal, eat, I don't even want to sleep and I love to sleep (don't ask why it's kind of crazy). Last few days have been kind of bad in the food diary. Not over on carbs, just not eating enough or not eating enough good things because right now I really just don't care. It's to the point that I couldn't finish my simple breakfast of boiled eggs and cauliflower because I start gagging because I just didn't want it. I'm not lethargic; I have energy; I'm just in this "I wish I didn't exist" mood. No, I'm not talking or thinking about suicide. Goodness this is difficult to explain. I'm just hoping this passes soon. Happy journey to you all!

View Diet Calendar, 26 March 2015:
1405 kcal Fat: 75.46g | Prot: 42.96g | Carbs: 28.25g.   Breakfast: Ranch Salad Dressing, Cauliflower, Boiled Egg, Coffee-Mate Sugar Free Creamy Chocolate Coffee Creamer, Coffee, Whole Milk. Dinner: Subway Veggie Delite Salad, Subway Tuna Salad. Snacks/Other: Splenda No Calorie Sweetener Packets, Great Value Whole Milk Greek Yogurt, Blueberries. more...
2296 kcal Exercise: Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 3 hours, Resting - 13 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...

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I think you have carb flu drink lots of water it will pass. Strongs  
26 Mar 15 by member: Chanel51
What do you mean by carb flu? My carbs have been in my limits or under. Besides I think I know what is going on, but if I'm right it just isn't usual for me. If I'm right it will pass in another day or two. Or maybe I'm just bored.  
26 Mar 15 by member: blurose411
I agree with Chanel51. Try and get some SoBe water or make yourself some low carb pancakes or fake cheesecake to get yourself out of the funk. 
26 Mar 15 by member: dayberndt
Bluose422 sometimes we walk on that path and we just cant put our finger on it whats got us down. I do believe if it was always a positive day we would not have anything to really look forward to, or appreciate ,or we would take our good days for granted. Hey sweetie, if you just need someone to listen, send me a message over.. and I will try to just support you through it.  
26 Mar 15 by member: syndi55
Carb flu is when your body is getting rid of the bad foods etc, I had it for about a week,after that I had terrible headaches. Google carb flu it will help you understand exactly what a happening to you at the moment  
26 Mar 15 by member: Chanel51
Ok, looked into the carb flu, don't think that is it. Linda, I know this will sound like excuses but, I have tried to just get moving. That is the only way I got the little bit done yesterday that I did get done. I went out to the garden to do some much needed weeding hoping the sun light would help, but that didn't last. I tried to write in my personal journal; took up a page to write 4 lines about how I didn't want to write. Unfortunately, I've got no way to go anywhere and my walks are having the same effect. The more I think on it the more I think I'm bored with maybe a touch of loneliness. But, hey, on a lighter note; I just remembered my son has his first track meet tomorrow. It took some finagling but I will be there to cheer him on. He's running the 1600 meter. Maybe being there for him will help me break out of this. Thanks you guys for all of your support; it means a lot to me. 
26 Mar 15 by member: blurose411
I had days like that and many of them. That is why I said to treat yourself to something that fells sweet but actually doesn't have a lot of carbs. It will make you feel like you're pampering yourself and step a little bit out of the stringent diet. Also, what works for me is... computer games. No, not the facebook style ones, real MMORPG games. Right now I am playing Guild Wars 2, and there are many people my age and even older who play it. To be honest, playing MMORPG games did help me a lot when I was going through breast cancer treatment - I could log in and identify with my avatar and just live for a while in a fantasy land, and forget for a while the real life problems. 
26 Mar 15 by member: dayberndt
I get like that sometimes, usually when there is just too much on my plate and my whole body screams enough! Be nice to yourself for a day or so and try to get some decent sleep. ((hugs)) 
26 Mar 15 by member: nicholaix
Are you a Libra? This might be one of your "down" times if you are! "This too shall pass" is what my boss used to say. "Spring Fever" is what I always think this time of year. Hope you feel better soon! 
26 Mar 15 by member: abbadabba
I feel you. Me personally, I've dealt with spells of depression over the course of my life, starting in 7th grade. Maybe the diet and exercise changes caused a shift in your hormones? 
26 Mar 15 by member: Eden6
Also, depending on where you live, the winter blues is REAL. A lack of sunlight can seriously trigger feelings like that.  
26 Mar 15 by member: Eden6
You guys are great! Abbadabba, I'm a sagittarius and as such the diet and exercise should be making me feel more myself (we are supposed to be very athletic). I live in the deep south, winter blues still happens but we get spring earlier. The spring fever thing has crossed my mind. Depression spell is a real possibility. I've had many diagnosis over the years but the most accurate, IMO, was intermittent deep depression. The MD said it would come and go with no trigger. That seems very accurate for the way it happens, right now being a prime example. As long as it passes with in a week or two it won't get too deep.  
26 Mar 15 by member: blurose411
Yes, it can be intermittent depressed feelings - generally it is bio-chemistry meaning it just can drop by for no reason. Stay with your plan and get a little exercise if you can - I hope it will pass soon for you. Good luck. 
26 Mar 15 by member: HCB
Also, please check in on FS too, so we won't worry too much about you. ;) 
26 Mar 15 by member: Eden6
I get a depression spells all the time. Especially in the first few weeks of my weight loss. My body is trying to cope with the activity and food changes, and flushing out bad foods in my body. It didn't help that I have a hormonal problem which just makes it worse. I usually just lie down in bed or watch tv without really watching. I use to go to food whenever I feel like that but I'm changing it lately. I try to workout, and if I can't I go for a quick walk, just to do anything. I also write everything I felt in a journal entry and got a lot of support which is helpful. I find most helpful though is doing something positive or productive, something to counter the negativity I felt. Last time I had one of these, I drew instead (without a real purpose, just draw for the fun of it), and made a list of weight loss goals and set up a reward for each. That was really fun. know you said you don't have energy but I hope you'll find it soon. 
26 Mar 15 by member: ronnae15
I get the same thing happening to me. Actually I've been in a funk starting 2 days ago and I'm like extremely irritable and I don't feel like doing things either. It does pass and it gets better. Hang in there. You can do it and you will do it - look at the support you have on here! 
26 Mar 15 by member: bertoldiamanda
Thanks, guys your support really is great. The hubby is home so I've got the car for the afternoon. I was gonna go ahead a get the kids' easter, so maybe some shopping therapy will help. Maybe just being out of the house will help. Having you guys to talk it out with helped me admit to myself what is going on. I try to bury it so I don't always realize what I'm feeling. Ronnae, I can be an emotional eater as well, but thankfully I haven't had to fight those urges this time around. Instead I'm fighting to eat. I feel hungry but I don't want the food. I have to be careful in this regard too as I came to close for comfort to anorexia when I was a teen. It took years for my body to be able to send me hunger and full messages again after that. Can't do that to myself again. I can't say thanks enough for all of your loving support. I feel less isolated since I found this site and you guys with it. 
26 Mar 15 by member: blurose411
Well, getting out of the house and doing some shopping therapy did seem to help a bit. My mood has lifted. Still haven't eaten much today. Cals are high, carbs are low, don't know what else to eat. Maybe some fruit. Here's hoping tomorrow is a better day. Good night all and happy journey. 
26 Mar 15 by member: blurose411
Glad to hear you are feeling a little better! 
26 Mar 15 by member: HCB

     
 

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