davidsprincess's Journal, 10 Nov 21

but the good news is your almost as strong as me 🤣😂🤣 yeah. I caught that. I need to get my rear in gear. happy hump day!!  

Advice advice advice… blah blah blah 😂 

I can relate to this. I've been grounded from peanut butter for a long time. Some days I'll just go to bed when the ravenous beast rears his head. I have a d hd so sometimes what I need is not food but sensory stimulation after a particularly stressful day. Tear papers to bits, throw eggs at trees, drop coins on the floor or sudewalk for others to find, anything other than sabotage. Hugs. You're not alone! 

I feel your pain Princess ! My name is MAL and I’m a nighttime snacker…one day at a time, just like AA. And I love carbs of every kind, I know I would feel so much better without them. 

I have struggled with self loathing for a long time. It is real and hard to get over. Here are some reminders that I have posted on my computer that help me. The gate to happiness is self-compassion. Appreciate yourself and honor your soul. Your mind is the garden your thoughts are the seeds, the harvest can either be flowers or weeds.  

Getting older and lazier on top of having a desk job after 38 years of self employment helped me put on 17 lbs in 2 years...and I was already fluffy! Evening snacking was lots of calories. Hubby makes awesome PLATTERS of nachos, finish up the dessert hanging around, have a bowl of chips... You know the drill. Here are some things that have helped: platters of nachos are now PLATES, and only once or twice a month. WATER sometimes craving for food is actually needing water. I'm really bad at remembering to drink my water. I brew pots of tea for sipping in the evening. Hershey's dark chocolate kisses about 20 cals each. Sucked not chewed. Popcorn replaces chips and crackers. Eat one piece at a time. Fruit and nut trailmx measured into a bowl and eaten ONE piece at a time. Log everything . Hang in there!Hang in there!whether it puts you over your calories goal or not. Tomorrow is another day. 

You gotta feed the need at times. That’s what I do. Then Reel it back to focus on my goals. 

I find that gum helps  

That’s a big, and important, thing to admit though. Being honest with yourself about what got you to where you are is the first step to getting it back. 

Nighttime can be the right time. I have learned that there are certain things that I can not put in my mouth at night. Those things trigger a response from me that can lead to uncontrolled eating. I don't see anything wrong with that. I don't deny myself of those foods and treats completely. I just don't eat them at night because there could be trouble... 

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DP, I completely get it. Over 3 years ago I got on here, slowly lost over 30 pounds and started gaining. Almost a year ago came back here and have lost a whooping 5 pounds! I know what my excuse/reason is, but it doesn't make it any easier. What's sad, for me, is that I am not sure I want to get down to work, not right now anyway. 😕 

I understand what your going through. I am having a hard time with some family issues at home and sometimes I just eat to try to feel better. Then I gain and I am irritated with myself. I just wish I didn't crave sweets and junk food so much that I have to have in the house because the rest of the family wants it. I think it would be easier if we didn't have the stuff in the house.  

prayers that you find strength.  

Thanks all! No time to respond. Work sucks today and has ruined my gym plans. So frustrating. Eating under control, but it's not 7 p.m. yet. 😆 Shirfleur..that's it exactly. ❤️ 

Hello Ms. DP.....I agree with what you said about "it's a sad life when you can't portion out something that you really enjoy without going overboard". I've been there plenty of times in the past. I'm a TBI (Traumatic Brain Injury) survivor, from a tragic car accident that happened in 1999. I'm 6'3 1/2 and I was weighing around 270 at the time. After the accident, I had gotten up to 320 lbs. However about 6 months ago, I made up my mind and decided enough-is-enough. I started watching what I ate and portioned out my food, gave up eating a lot of bread and I stopped eating after 8 O'clock. I have been under 285 lbs for 6 months now.....even dropping down to 272 lbs. Plus, I'm working out. Now I must say, you shouldn't say, "I hate fat people and I hate fat people mindset". That's a discriminatory and prejudice statement. Jesus doesn't hate anyone.....not even those who crucified him. I'm just saying..... 

it's hard I know. but I also know you can do it. stay strong 

You really are honest! I know how you are feeling and I hope we can both do well through the holidays. When I am really committed and able to stick to my plan I just know I can't have certain things in the house or I won't be able to resist them. I know that about myself. But I live alone so I can do that. You have a husband and kids so have to have things for them. I like peanut butter but it's not a trigger food. If I have it I make half a sandwich, just one slice of bread. The calories in 2 tablespoons of peanut butter is crazy! I've learned to eat half sandwiches and that's enough for me. But I am one of those people who just can't eat a few potato chips. When I buy them I know I am going to splurge. Last time I lost 50 pounds I did it while having a cheat day about every 10 days. I'm going to try not to do that this time. I have just made chips an absolute "no". It's been about 6 months. But I can still find ways to over eat! but like you, I'm not going to over indulge on hard boiled eggs. That was a nice snack you had the other night. I know I'm rambling, I just hate to see you being so hard on yourself. No one here expects you to be perfect. And you still motivate me. Oh, and I go to bed early so no late night snacks and usually nothing to eat in the evenings. 

Thanks Fritzy. I read something you wrote the other day about bagels and something else you eat and I thought how many we'd go through together. I know people don't like when I'm "hard on myself" but someone needs to be. I think it works better for me than the "love yourself" stuff.  

I do the same thing! I manage well during the day, but at night I can’t seem to feel full or satisfied 😒