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Wherever my story takes me, however dark and difficult the theme, there is always some hope and redemption, not because readers like happy endings, but because I am an optimist at heart. I know the sun will rise in the morning, that there is a light at the end of every tunnel. ~ Michael Morpurgo
Ever feel an actual shift happening in your life? Things changing on a visceral level even though you can't see where you'll end up yet. You may have a glimpse. Nothing is set in stone but your mind is already there, waiting for the details to fall in place. It used to be I'd feel an undercurrent of change, not really sure what was going on. This time, I can almost see it as it's happening. My need for control says I want to know all the pieces all the time right now before it all happens I need to approve it before it can happen. Growing me says shut up and see where this takes you. Shhh. It's going to end up where it ends up. Prepare but don't obsess (yeah, easier said than done in practice but we're working on it).
Today it feels like a lightening up of the pressure (not the work but the distress it caused by not being on top of it). I almost fully believe what I've been telling my team: WE GOT THIS. Their faith in me is humbling and scary sometimes. I can see my failings so glaringly and I'm not the leader I would want for them. They give me grace and allow me to lead them anyway. They touch me in ways I never expected and it makes me want to be better for them. For me too, but definitely better for them. They deserve someone who knows more, does better, listens better, communicates better. I don't know yet how to be that so I keep trying.
And some days, it all comes down to giving each other grace for our failings, loving each other through the failures and encouraging each other that WE GOT THIS.
Hey buddies. You are worth the struggle to get better every day. And if you have a day that it doesn't work that well and you have a failure of heart to keep it sustained and you lose it at your family because you really wanted that ice cream and you ate it and now you're mad at yourself...give yourself the grace if no one else does. And keep trying.
WE GOT THIS. YOU got this. Now go have a great day.
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86.4 kg
Lost so far: 18.8 kg.
Still to go: 20.6 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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View Diet Calendar, 14 January 2017:
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927 kcal
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Fat: 48.43g | Prot: 68.90g | Carbs: 51.79g.
Breakfast: International Delight Sugar Free Caramel Macchiato Coffee Creamer, Whole Foods Market Stevia, Coffee. Lunch: Private Selection Sliced Extra Sharp White Cheddar Cheese, Chicken Breast. Dinner: La Carretta Sopapilla, Fajita with Beef and Vegetables. more...
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steady weight
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