Rckc's Journal, 01 Apr 16

Well, there it is. GAINED. I'm not someone that needs to say, "I don't know what happened" or "what should I do". I know exactly what I did-I binged all last week and again last night. I had managed to detox myself Monday-Thursday til Thursday night when the "carbs hit the fan". What I NEED to figure out is WHY I do it. I went for a long long time not even feeling like it and now sometimes I feel like I'm barely hanging on. I feel physically BAD this morning. Didn't sleep well, had aches and stomach upset all night. Giant headache now. I hope to hold onto this feeling and remember how AWFUL I feel after binging. Anyone have insight into why a perfectly happy person who is feeling great, suddenly goes and screws it up?

I feel sad today....
68.0 kg Lost so far: 56.7 kg.    Still to go: 6.2 kg.    Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
Gaining 0.9 kg a Week

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Please don't beat yourself up, we all here on Fat Secret have an emotional "carb binge"day or day's or week's. Today is a new day to get back on track and tomorrow, the next day...etc. You've got this!  
01 Apr 16 by member: Jones Jennifer
Could it possibly be that you were feeling too good? Was it that trap that oh I'll just have one.. And that one led to many others? We all have stumbles and falls during this journey, but it was not a mistake because you have learned a valuable lesson. The lesson is that you feel icky. However you should also be proud that you recognized what is going on and that you have the knowledge and tools to turn it around. You can do this.. One step at a time. :)  
01 Apr 16 by member: pamsluv
I shared these comments with another FS Buddy.... "The truth is that we can't always turn self-control on and off. Approximately 20 percent of the calories we expend daily are used by our brains. Because brain activity is so costly, things like self-control and decision making cannot be relied on indefinitely. Willpower is a limited resource. You should not be surprised or feel at fault for not stopping yourself." (There are some good articles on the web in this regard.) I can go for many days and not touch the things that should stay out of my mouth, and then all of a sudden I'll fall off the caloric wagon and the next day I'm questioning how did that happen? Anyway, I'm very impressed with your 125 pound weight loss and congratulate you for your huge success. 😊  
01 Apr 16 by member: Slip72
What I think is so difficult to understand is how old habits come back BOOM after so much time. I will have to look on web for info. I DO know that at least half the weight battle is in my head.... 
01 Apr 16 by member: Rckc
Well said, Rckc .... half the battle in our heads.  
01 Apr 16 by member: Mom2Boxers
I am sorry you feel sad. It is hard sometimes, isn't it? I craved carbs hard last week, too. I like the suggestion from Pamsluv that maybe we get too cocky or think I have control so one piece is OK and then the CarbMonster takes over! 
01 Apr 16 by member: HCB
Go for a walk, clear your head, start over. You have come so far...do something nice for yourself and move on! Have a good day! 
01 Apr 16 by member: iulani
I feel sad with you. For me, the minute I give in to the comfort food mindless eating, I cannot pull myself out until at best the next day. I like Slip's idea that willpower is a limited resource. But the temptations are endless. I'm looking at >100 lbs to lose and that nirvana where I don't have any slip ups or temptations. I had lunch with my skinny sister yesterday and she complained how she still catches herself eating all the leftovers on her grandkids plates. Uggh. Hope you get a good nights sleep and wake up renewed with Gods blessings. 
01 Apr 16 by member: Sarah1950
It's a battle of the mind for sure. The right mindset, the right attitude, makes all the difference. You've done really well, made big changes and lost of lot of weight. Don't let this get you down too much. The journey has it's ebbs and flows, ups and downs. I think at some point "diet fatigue" may set in...maybe that's not the best thing to call it as we're working on a new way of life and not a "diet." But at some point we may have to catch our breath for a bit and get renewed, recharged. Hang in there, it's just a bump and probably part of the process of becoming the person you've been working towards since you started. 
01 Apr 16 by member: jmb3450
I agree journey can become challenging, even if successful. Don't beat yourself up over this little detour you took. The fact you are here talking about it here tells me you are already getting back to the right path. IMO life happens and we will all have times when we overdo. The challenge for me is not so much the food I ate or how much, but feelings of guilt and failure of me allowing myself the indulgences after. I have had some life happens situations these past few weeks and after each I continued with my plan after and didn't try to comfort myself with food again for being human. Sending positive thoughts your way. 
01 Apr 16 by member: ptgrand
Thanks all, I know what I need to do. I guess maybe I thought those binge feelings were gone. Been sooo long since I've actually done it. And yes, the guilt shame and feeling of failure and out of control-ness scared me. I'm always saying keep at it and be ever vigil. Guess I will take my own advice :-) 
01 Apr 16 by member: Rckc
You lost 125lbs!!?? Amazing and you are so inspiring to me! I think how some people are sensitive to "outside spirits" we are sensitive to taste, like our taste buds work extra good! Does that make any sense? Lol!!! 
01 Apr 16 by member: smartygirlCA
You is a hoomin bean. And hoomin beans ain't perfect. Y'all mess up allatime. But you gots to be more like doggies! We forgits our misstakez an try agin next day! - Angel Bear Slobberchops. (this was written by that cute blond lab in my profile pic. I probably need to restrict her 'net access ... ) 
01 Apr 16 by member: SteelerMummeh
You moved 30 miles ahead and stepped back on step? You are doing amazing, do not beat yourself up, you are doing great. 
01 Apr 16 by member: brucemcguigan
Cute, SteelerMummeh! 
02 Apr 16 by member: Mom2Boxers
Thank you Bruce for putting it into perspective. Why do I as a "hoomin bean" concentrate on the one small negative when so many positives have been made the last year. Oh yeah, I "aint perfect"! 
02 Apr 16 by member: Rckc
hey we all have been there! sometimes I think that I should weigh myself daily so i dont get in that situation again.!Just jump back on your healtlhy lifestyle and before you know it the weight sill be off and you will be feeling good again.Try to remember how horrible this feels .....not to fret... bruce is right! you have come along way baby!  
02 Apr 16 by member: blondie-61

     
 

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