Dilia Esther's Journal, 15 Apr 21

“Greetings and Salutations..!” Hope you are all well on this fine Thursday. I’m Dilia from NYC. I had stumbled upon an old journal & read an entry of how frustrated I was for going over my calories on FatSecret. That was back in the 2000’s when I weighed 207 lbs. Of course, I deemed that FS wasn’t working for me. So I left.
After that, I tried every single diet & workout available. Needless to say, those didn’t work either. “Oh no! What’s going on?” I thought constantly. “I’m always going to be a fat pig fat!” 🥺😢. Yeah! Those were my thoughts. Let’s fast forward to September 2018, the morning of my 48th birthday when the scale flashed 215.6 lbs. 😳 Well, I took a shower, had a huge breakfast & went to get a facial. 😶 Later, in a restaurant, by myself, I took a few selfies (See 1st picture of my profile) & vowed to start self-care ASAP. I didn’t say lose weight, get Fit or become a Hot Mamacita! I said I AM GOING TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF!
That made a difference! WHY?! I simply learned to recognize the negative energy of those around me & I removed myself from their presence. I eliminated the BS guilt I was carrying for no reason. I listened to how my body felt. I took my intuitive messages to heart. I stopped listening to unsolicited advice. I stopped berating myself. I started being more forgiving & loving towards myself. I accepted there are things, people & circumstances that I was never going to change or bring back. I prioritized my feelings & desires instead of working hard at making others feel better. I learned to say NO without shame. I lauded my life, all the time. & most importantly, I did & do whenever, wherever, however & whatever my lil’ ❤️ desires. 😊
I practice intermittent fasting because eating 3 meals & 2 snacks doesn’t work for me. I aim to be active, at least, 4 days a week. I drink lots of water. Sometimes I eat under my daily calories allowances, other times I eat over 3,000 calories in a day & it’s ok! “Tomorrow is another day!” Getting healthy doesn’t have a time-frame. It is a part of life, an unique journey that only I, anyone of us, can make it work. Yesterday, i reached a long sought after goal. I weigh 174.4 lbs. I’m happy but the work doesn’t end here. I want to get to 170 lbs & I also want to continue working on myself to have the healthiest & most meaningful life for myself & everyone around me. This journey of losing lbs is not really about counting calories or eliminating food groups. It’s ok to switch it up once in a while but it’s not worth getting obsessive about it. I know we all are very accomplishing & wonderful people here. Let’s focus on the that! We are renting space on this beautiful planet of ours. Let’s not wasted worrying about useless things. Let’s get healthier, mind, body & soul & BE HAPPIER ABOUT LIFE! 🤗😘🥰

79.1 kg Lost so far: 14.8 kg.    Still to go: 6.5 kg.    Diet followed: Reasonably Well.

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1828 kcal

Fat: 120.23g | Prot: 97.90g | Carbs: 89.00g.   Breakfast: Trader Joe's Organic Coconut Milk, Patty de Pollo, Monkfruit Sweetener, Papayas , McCormick Pure Vanilla Extract, Monk Fruit in The Raw Monk Fruit Sweetener, Happy Belly Heavy Whipping Cream, Coffee. Lunch: Great Value Real Mayonnaise, Patty de Pollo, Swiss Cheese , Carbonated Water Unsweetened, Low Carb Almond Bread. Snacks/Other: Bananas , Nabisco Chips Ahoy! Chewy Chocolate Chip Cookies. more...

2266 kcal

Exercise: Elliptical - 30 minutes, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 15 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...