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My therapy homework last week was to notice when I am kind to myself. THEN I had to thank myself for being kind to me. It didn't happen often.
I thanked myself for doing yoga every day even though I hated nearly every moment. I am in so much physical pain and inflexible, and I don't know how to modify. (Really. If I did, would I have an eating disorder? LOL!) Been having chest pain since the end of Dec (costochondritis), so Doc sent me to Physical Therapy yesterday. PT asked me to stop with the 30 day program and find a gentle chair yoga. "You can't find that quiet place in your mind if your body is screaming." Point taken. (I also can't breathe because my ribs are stuck!) I'll be seeing PT twice a week for the next few months.
After my PT appointment, I went to the store to buy a sports bra. (This weight gain has me up in band size and THREE cup sizes!) I left with a sports bra, a black scarf (which I've been wanting for years), some driving gloves, and a black turtleneck sweater. I was genuinely pleased. I thanked myself for being generous and not making me feel guilty.
There are still many more moments where I berated myself, but I'm trying. Oh look... another opportunity:
Thank you for trying. I know it's hard.
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94.8 kg
Lost so far: 8.3 kg.
Still to go: 20.0 kg.
Diet followed: Not Applicable.
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Losing 0.5 kg a Week
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