59Carol's Journal, 08 Jun 19

I am recording a gain. Of course, I would prefer to record a loss. I am not too concerned as I know that I will keep trending down however it is a reminder that if I stray too far from my planned eating that I will not do as well on the weight loss front.

The most notable activity this last week was driving 2.5 hours to The Land (as the organizing people in the North Country Fair refer to the location of the Fair) to assist my friend with food prepping for the Festival in two weeks. It meant working one afternoon and then sleeping over in my camper and working the next morning and afternoon before heading home. I made 30 pans of lasagna that are now frozen and ready. Other than that I was the garlic peeler, onion chopper and dish washer.

I was asked a little while ago by one of the music coordinators for the Fair if they could do a workshop entitled "Dave's Not Here" in honour of my husband, Dave. My husband often referenced the Cheech and Chong skit by saying "Dave's not here" when people came looking for him. I told them he would be pleased. I was expecting a workshop on one of the three smaller stages during one of the afternoons. I found out a couple of days ago from my son (who is responsible for the layout and printing of the program for the Fair) that it was on Friday at the Main Stage at 5:30 (the first Act). Then my son told me who was playing -- all long time musical friends of my husband's. I burst into happy tears. When I shared the information with my daughter and my sister they too burst into happy tears.

Our Fair Family lost two long time members - my husband and our good friend Jim plus another man who was fast becoming a fixture in the community in the first 4 months of this year. The group is reeling from our loss. My husband and Jim in particular were ubiquitous at the Fair. Everywhere you looked you saw one or both of them. Many people have expressed how difficult this Fair will be with their absences. I have some trepidation attending this year just because it will be hard to deal with my grief, my children's grief, all of our friends' grief and the grief of well meaning people who don't know what to say or do and finally the people who will be hearing for the first time. I know our entire family is preparing themselves mentally.

On a happier note, there has been no visible smoke at my house for nearly a week. Occasionally the smell is in the air. We are no longer on critical alert. People to the north of me have been allowed back to their homes. Right now the people who have gone back to their homes continue to be on official alert that they may need to vacate on short notice if the fire situation changes.

100.6 kg Lost so far: 21.2 kg.    Still to go: 23.5 kg.    Diet followed: Reasonably Well.

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1356 kcal

Fat: 29.30g | Prot: 65.05g | Carbs: 217.35g.   Breakfast: Kombucha, Tea (Brewed), Honey, Whole Milk, Yam, Poached Egg. Lunch: Raw Vegetable, Beef Barley Soup. Dinner: Birds Eye Roasted Red Potatoes in Garlic & Oil, Italpasta Spaghettini, Market Pantry Traditional Meat Pasta Sauce. Snacks/Other: 365 Greek Yogurt Plain. more...

2819 kcal

Exercise: Dance (slow step) - 20 minutes, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 45 minutes, Stretching (yoga) - 30 minutes, Sleeping - 9 hours, Weight Training (moderate) - 13 minutes, Resting - 13 hours and 12 minutes. more...