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This weekend I realized that I talk a lot about losing weight but I don't actually do anything about it. I stopped exercising during the day and have gained 5 pounds since New Year's - and I have started just stuffing things into my mouth at night, just before I go to bed because I am hungry and didn't plan on my night snack to be the final 300 calories of a 1200 calorie day.
Reading some of the journals here, I see I just am not focused on what I want to do. I decided today, I will not be discussing my diet with others but instead will actually just do what I need to do. I know that even going out to eat, I can have great volume and low calories and tasty meals, so that is one decision. The other is that I will have my own kitchen when my daughters come home for summer vacation so I plan to get my own food and eat what I buy for myself, instead of mixing in with my roommate who is a generous overeater! She cooks for me often, so I end up not having any control over what I eat, and basically due to laziness on my part.
Drove to work this morning in a funk, but by the time I got to work I had come to the conclusion that my life is good, I have everything I need. Even an imperfect boyfriend fills a void - no pressure to give up my space but I get some special attention that many of my friends do not have, even the married ones.
My clothes are tight today so I am uncomfortable - can't go off and buy bigger sizes! Must lose the 5 pounds I have gained!
Thank you for all the inspiration, people. And if I figure out any miracle weight loss cures, you all will be the first to know - otherwise I'll be exercising and eating healthy along with you all! Happy Monday!
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