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Thursday. Should be contra-dancing tonight but instead I am getting training for my second job. Blah. It snowed last night - Christmas is Saturday - going to hang out with my mom tomorrow night but she wants me to sleep over and I don't think I will.
I am up and down these days - so much to do, so little time! I am going through the boxes of stuff that I packed up in the summer and fall - lots of pictures, lots of memories. Good and bad - all the changes are stressful, and more stress from bad weather and a lonely Christmas. I just have to remember that my life is better than it would have been had I stayed married - I think I keep wishing that I was married to the perfect mate I have created in my head! That, the fantasy, is the hardest part to get over: if only he had decided to be nicer, if he had liked me more, if I had lost weight earlier or gotten a master's degree in the field he thought was better...yeah, and if I had grown wings he might have stayed too! lol! If our lives were like our fantasies none of us would be on Fatsecret!
Anyway. I have a phone number to call to make some dance dates - the guy from contradancing gave me his phone number in case I wasn't going to be able to go to contra. Turns out he goes to other dances too, like the singles rock night at the VFW, basically anywhere. Mind you, this guy looks a lot like Woody Allen without glasses - but to put him in perspective, my former husband never danced with me, not even at our wedding. So the prospect that there are men out there who voluntarily go out dancing is pretty exciting.
By Monday night I have to have my house set up for my daughters to live with me for January - more furniture moving. I think I'll take Monday off work, and get the cleaning ladies to help me. Plus my roommate and I will move some stuff this weekend too.
Doing ok with food - I think I'll start being more careful about increasing protein and decreasing carbs - see if that helps. I get hungry and stay hungry - and there is too much food available here in the office - downside to not having a lot to do and having a vending machine nearby.
I almost forgot that I have anxiety meds if stress gets unbearable - so I have been doing better since I used to take them every other day.
Making a list and buying myself a bunch of stuff this week! Self-santa-ing!
Happy Holiday Season! Eat well, buddies!
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