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Ahhhh! Friday (sort of!) My work week is over tomorrow morning at 5 am. Contractor has a major misunderstanding about how we are going to pay him - he has been la-dee-da about how much digging he is doing, thinking he is getting paid by a cubic measure - ah, no, we only pay by the square foot, no matter how deep a hole you dig and refill...This could be a problem! Keeps me on my toes though.
I decided today at noon time to feel sorry for myself all week. I am living alone, daughter one at school coming home next week, daughter two hanging out at dad's even though dad isn't there (long story which I won't go into). So, I wake to an empty house, eat with my birds, hang out alone. Unless I go out. Now that I work at night, my waking hours are when elderly and unemployed and "stay-at-home" moms are out and about - or people out on their lunch breaks. So, I ate lunch at the diner and chatted with the waitress who also has a graduating high school child among the elderly customers. On the way home I decided to just feel bad. I think having permission to do that made the feeling pretty much go away after about 8 minutes.
I have to watch what I eat at this job - what I had yesterday made me sick to my stomach - I think it was really old leftovers which smelled off but I ate them anyway. Not a good way to lose weight, but I am down a pound this month. Too slow and not steady weight loss!
My daughters will both be back in the house starting next Wednesday - until then, I intend to remind myself of all the horrible things I have to worry about and wallow in self-pity for at least 10 minutes a day. Do you know this song? "Nobody loves me, everybody hates me, I'm going to eat some worms!" There's a diet for you, and not a tasty one, I am guessing since I have never eaten worms!
Oh, and did I mention I have to go camping Saturday? Yes, Brownie Girl Scouts require my attendance at a camping day. Luckily no one wants to sleep over.
Ok, now I'll read some journals and get out and measure some things once the drilling stops and the dust settles while the guys eat their "lunch" at 2 in the morning!
Have a good weekend!
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Oh I can so relate to you. That feeling of being alone when the kids get to this age. Empty nest that's what it is. I suppose if you have a relationship of some kind it would be a grand time so you know what we gotta do Abba. We gotta get out there and paint that town red. lol We have to have fun and do things even if it is alone to start out with. Staying home thinking about it will not do us any good. The weekend is coming...make a plan and do it. Time to think of ourselves.
14 May 10 by member: chattycathy1955
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Empty nest huh? I am not looking forward to that. I am sure after a while you will adjust and find a way to fill in the void without added cals. Listen to cathy, and take some of that tiem and spend it on yourself;) have a nice bath , do your toes, do a salt and scrub in the tub followed by a nice glass of wine and a chick flick- can be fun even by yourself.
Have fun camping- and keep those spirits up!!
14 May 10 by member: Baileyboo
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I've never heard of anyone making a conscious decision to feel sorry for themselves for an entire week (lol). "Empty nest" sounds so sad, why not consider it a brief vacation. You could take yourself out on a special date as has been discussed before. Anyway, you are losing weight and in good company here so keep your chin up abba! Have a great weekend! :-)
14 May 10 by member: information
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I DO know that song!!! Your journal is poignant. Every routine you had is turned upside down. Ch ch ch changes ... do you know that song? I like the idea of putting a container on feeling badly ... interesting. Something tells me you are a VERY interesting woman and I would imagine ... when you are ready to put yourself out there ... you will find some interesting company!! Difficult to do when your work week is so strange but you never know ... you just never know. Having been an empty nester for many years now ... I must tell you I like it!! Maybe I'm weird. I love my kids but I love just having an "adult" household. Hang in there Abba ... and please ... don't eat worms!!
14 May 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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Well abba, I had 4 kids, moved them all out eventually and with time, three came back, then two more left, then another then, one came back again, then left and now one is still here with her child. Soooooo, I do believe I could appreciate some "alone time" . Now if that doesn't confuse you, nothing will LOL Hope you find something interesting to do this weekend my friend. Enjoy each moment as "They Come Back"!! :-)
14 May 10 by member: The Next Number
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