jcmama777's Journal, 10 Sep 19

Welp. There goes the rest of my appetite tonight. 😂 

Hugs for you, jcmama! I know that you'll get through this. Just hang in there and take things day by day! 

😂😂🤮 yeast spread, a delicacy 😂🤦🏻‍♀️🤮 Thanks SoHangry💕 I’m just going to rest and take my meds and have positive thoughts. I also cried because how big I got from the hospital. My PA I saw said “ JC, you’re not the same person anymore!! You changed, you lost so much weight and changed everything about you. I’m so proud of you. Also, it’s necessary.”  

Thank you Bella and Erika💕😞😔😢 it got busy when you posted and I got a little emotional and had to get it together to get another patient, he wasn’t perfect, no one is. But he was perfect for me. I am so sad. I miss him every day. But, I have the best memories and he lives inside my heart. I deal with it better than I did the first 2-3 years. He was young and it came out of nowhere. 

Sorry you are sick! I'm trying to avoid much of FS and I'm a bit out of the loop. Get well soon!  

Thanks DP❤️ I totally get it. I think it’s going to get a lot better here 🤞 🙌 it was nice yesterday just trying to rest and I was going through things, so it was nice to just lounge and watch tv and order in pho. Right now I’m hyped up on prednisone 😫🤪😩 I don’t see sleep happening anytime soon.  

Is there something he used to cook for you or eat? Maybe you could relive those memories of dad in the kitchen. 

...and also post pics here so we can drool on our devices.  

😢😢💕 we really liked venison, Italian subs from Nina’s Upstate NY, sardines and crackers, meats and cheese, liver worst, he made the best clam chowder,not creamy but not Manhattan, it was so clammy and lots of seasoning but still clammy. We would always pan fry our fresh fish we caught together and give some to gramma and she would soak it in orange crush before flouring and would season and fry them. We made homemade pizza a lot and even the fun little English muffin ones🤗😂💕 He always made the best breakfast from fresh ( slaughter) pork the sausage patties that were homemade and eggs and he never burned a pancake 💞 Every summer we would go blue berry picking and would use a bunch fresh and would bag and freeze enough to get us to almost the next summer 😢❤️ he made the best blueberry pancakes. He also made the best steaks like medium rare like more rare. That’s how I do mine. We would always say “ it’s not a steak unless you’re plate is still mooo-ing.”  

You'll always have those memories of him, and they can become tangible in the kitchen. I don't mean to make you sad. I was just thinking maybe it could be helpful to you. 

Absolutely SoHangry❤️ You didn’t make me sad. I was already sad and honestly, it’s always good to have a good cry, it’s therapeutic and my kids and hubby are sleeping. It’s a good time for it💕 it’s sad, but the memories are just priceless.  

Hope you feel better! (Assuming from the pill popping and syrup sipping that you are/were sick) 

Thanks peeper❤️ Yes, I am very sick. I got more syrup and pills( antibiotics and steroids 😩😩)  

DP, really crossing my fingers about FS as I already had to roll my eyes and keep it scrolling the last few minutes 🤦🏻‍♀️ It’s like people can’t help themselves and feel the need to get things fired up. ❤️🧘🏻‍♀️ ☮️ ugh friend lol.  

Awwww shucks!! You are really sick. Wish I was near you. I’m off today. I could be your nurse and tend on you hand and foot!! Beware of fs, it’s making me sick lately. Such vile rants on here. People lacking self control with the tongue, food and words! Ugh. Enough says! Hope you feel better sweetness. 💕💕💕💕💕💕 

Said* 

Wifey ❤️❤️😘 I would love that💕 yea I’m just going to lay low and keep being positive. I’m not digging all the negativity especially when Chris left I thought people would maybe change their toon a little longer than a day🤦🏻‍♀️ I won’t participate in it❤️🧘🏻‍♀️☮️ ☀️ 🌈 lol.  

Hmm. Thanks for the heads up. I was starting to scroll through posts but now I think I’ll check instagram or read. I’ll check FS again later ;)  

Wifey you are so sweet =) What a kind thing to say. JC - wishing you well again! Sleep easy darling.  

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