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My good friend Cathy mentioned to me on Facebook yesterday that she missed me on Fatsecret. Then today I log in here and see a message posted on my weigh-in yesterday from Kingkeld, encouraging me come back regularly and write a nice long journal like I used to to help get me back on track. So nice to have friends.
I could tell you many things to justify "why" I've been struggling. They are all true. And yet ... the bottom line comes down to I have made choices that have resulted in my weight gain and struggles with getting it back off. I love junk food. I love sugar. I continue to eat way past "full" for the taste or the feel of the food or ???? I eat to forget. I eat to celebrate. I eat to "feel better." I eat when I'm tired. I eat when I'm stressed. I eat when I am lonely, angry, and so on and so forth.
Anyway ...
I'm up early today although I am not going to work. Today I accompany my husband to his bi-annual checkup with his radiation oncologist and so I've taken the day off from work. He doesn't really "need" me to be there but I know he prefers it and so I go. This cancer he had has so changed our lives. Not the love we have for each other but the way that we live, even into the fabric of our relationship. It is so strange to me that while he was in treatment I did great with eating and weight loss/maintenance. Now? Oh, definitely not so good. While I didn't climb all the way back to where I was when I started here at Fatsecret I did come VERY, VERY close.
However, I am doing my best to track and exercise and will work at being back here regularly. I WILL weigh less than I do now when my birthday arrives in April of next year. I WILL practice being grateful and being kind to myself. I am.
Coffee and exercise, then breakfast and getting ready for the day. Perhaps a movie awaits me today.
Today I am grateful for ...
Still having my husband at my side.
Good buddies from fatsecret who don't forget me!!
Dry wood that catches quickly in the woodstove.
Bejeweled Blitz!!!
Hot coffee on a cold morning.
View Diet Calendar, 27 November 2012:
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297 kcal
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Fat: 13.44g | Prot: 20.58g | Carbs: 27.77g.
Breakfast: Whole Wheat Sandwich Thins, Egg, Velveeta Cheese Slices, Low Fat Mayonnaise Dressing. more...
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3170 kcal
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Exercise:
Sitting - 4 hours, Elliptical - 45 minutes, Resting - 11 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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THAT's the spirit! It's awesome to see a longer journal from you. You're a great writer, and I enjoy reading your thoughts. :) I'm very proud to be motivating you a little. Regarding the eating, you probably have a lot of emotional eating, as do we all. For me, it helps me a LOT to understand that it is just that - EMOTIONAL eating. This helps me understand that I do not satisfy my hunger by falling for it. It helps me talk myself out of another bad choice. I hope maybe that can help you too.
27 Nov 12 by member: kingkeld
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Thanks Keld. I know being here helps me. Even though I understand cognitively I will never be "done" I don't like it much. My whole adult life I've been on this roller-coaster scale ride. You'd think I'd have it figured out by now but I don't. You are right. It is emotional eating and I am SO GOOD AT IT!!! LOL!!! Choices.
27 Nov 12 by member: madaboutmoose
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Great to see you back, Carol. I missed you. Glad you did the doctor visit with your DH. I'm sure its much appreciated. I, too, am struggling on the weight loss front. I feel like I've been struggling since I brought my sister back to NY. So maybe it's a lot of the same for all of us, like Keld said, EMOTIONAL eating. Take comfort in that we're right there with you, girl.
27 Nov 12 by member: Helewis
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