I'm really
really REALLY hoping my bathroom scale is accurate at this point, because I'm feeling awesome about getting back into my eating/workout routine (especially after that bout of vacation and no time due to work, ugh). I feel like I'm starting to actually see some physical changes, which is a plus.
In testing myself recently, I picked up a bag of Reese's trees and a coworker bought me a danish (one of those rectangular tray ones filled with cheese) as a thank you for giving her a ride home.....
...let's just say the testing didn't go as well as planned....I ended up having a few of the trees and a slice off the end of the danish (while it was less than half an inch across, it's still sad to see how little self-control I have). To make matters worse, I sit there and rationalize about how I've been good and I deserve a little something. Rewards should not be in the form of artificially sweet or fattening foods! Unfortunately the image in the mirror doesn't seem to be enough of a reward, and I don't have the funds to go and buy myself something like a new top.
I do think, however, that its sweets that are my downfall moreso than snacky foods. The boyfriend has an affection for potato chips (mainly sour cream and onion, which are really good), and those are often a staple in the apartment. I seem to be able to avoid those with no real issue, but when it comes to chocolate I break down. There is a small positive here, in that the Reese's trees didn't taste as good and satisfying as I had remembered.
possibly a matter of weaning myself off of sweets? Or maybe looking into diet sweets? I've switched over to Weight Watchers ice cream (a little more pricey, but it tastes really good). Since picking up the box about a month ago, I've only had one. I try to save those for a really desperate "need a fix" moment.
I'm starting to wonder how much weight I really want to lose, too. The 147 or whatever it is I listed for my goal was based on a BMI calculator I found online, but I know that there are various body types and some frames are built to carry more weight than others of the same height. While I'm still not happy enough with my stomach and thighs to wear a bikini, I don't know if another 30+ is necessary. I guess we'll find out by Valentine's Day, considering that I've joined the "Drop 30 lbs by V-Day" challenge.
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Most people are concerned about the holidays, but (and possibly foolishly) I'm really not. I'll be finding out hopefully in the next two days or so if there are enough funds for us to go visit his family for Thanksgiving, and while I will be baking if we go, I don't think I'll have too big of an issue. My plan is to drink lots of water before meal time, fill up the rest of the space with protein and veggies (going to fight the urge for bread and potatoes the best I can), and then by the time dessert is brought out I'll either not have enough room for anything, or only enough room for the smallest of tastes.
If we end up staying home the plan is turkey sandwiches with some veggies (there's only two of us so I don't see a point in making a large meal).
I don't know if I'll be so optimistic about Christmas. I'll be heading back to my parent's house for that, and grandma is coming up, which means mom will end up cooking. Did I mention that half of my family is old school Italian? It means that meal time isn't just part of the day, it's an event.