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I am OK today. UP one day DOWN another, from moment to moment. But I have clarity of mind now. AND sometimes that is scary. I deal with 'feelings' without drowning them with food and getting numb. I don't know if I like this sometimes but I feel so much better with clarity and I know I have to deal with my feelings so I will allow this process to continue. I still don't know how it will work, how it will help, but for some reason I will allow it to continue, after all what do I really have to loose? But the weight and ME. I would always loose myself with the food, with the relationships with trying to be what others thought I should be. Well it has taken 60 years but now it is for ME. I would always say to be TRUE TO YOU True to me, but one phrase I heard today sums it up better; I am enough, I am enough for ME, I use to feel I was NOT enough, I was not skinny enough, smart enough, pretty enough, good enough...etc BUT that is OVER I AM ENOUGH and I feel good. Oh the program I'm in is OA. WOW it has been a journey since my first meeting 9/13/14 I was not sure in that first meeting (these folks are crazy, etc) But now they are my comrades and it is amazing. I still am not sure how this is going to help me but I know I feel good today and that is all I need. I am enough. I went through my step 5 today and that was a BIG thing for me. I feel so good and real. I am enough. :-)
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71.2 kg
Lost so far: 9.5 kg.
Still to go: 8.6 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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Losing 0.3 kg a Week
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