AlpacaPunch's Journal, 05 Sep 22

Been feeling hopeless. 2017-2018 was a bear year of relationships. I got so stressed that I lost 45lbs in 5 weeks then continued u til I got to 179lbs from 265. I found an amazing woman and got married. Up to our marriage I gained weight and continued to gain even more during our marriage. I just turned 35 Friday and have a wishy-washy ho}e and no hope based on weight. I've struggled a lot with my weight and so much so that even seeing weight gained on the scale absolutely destroys my day. Even to the point that I want to sleep like I used to when I dealt with depression.

I'm unsure of the micro/macros I should eat. I'm unsure of which workouts and how much I should do. I lack a lot of information even though I've searched. I've been doing some calisthenics and have been able to curl 40lb dumbbells and more pushups than what I could do back when I was 179 or many years in fact. But the chubby face and love handles... I could use some help.

100.8 kg Lost so far: 10.3 kg.    Still to go: 14.6 kg.    Diet followed: Reasonably Well.