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Huge mental set back today, but not in the way you would think.
I have a history of anxiety/panic attacks, which have been under control the last 3 years. I am good at recognizing my syptoms and doing breathing exercises to thwart off a full blown attack. The past couple of days, I have had new symptoms that I have never experienced before. It is very difficult to tell the difference between anxiety symptoms and symptoms of a legitamite medical problem, especially when they are new. Depsite my best efforts, I had an attack this morning.
Thanfully, today is a holiday for the Spanish Navy, so my husband was at home to support me and take care of Evie. I was able to end the attack after about 10 minutes, which is a record for me!
We have had significant stress put on us - all surrouding our return to the states and the logisitics/red tape we need to sort out so that we could stay in Spain longer. This has been going on for months. I truely thought I was taking it in stride. But the last few days have been even more difficult and super taxing. It seems that I am absorbing/internalizing this stress and that this triggered the mild/med symptoms and subsequently the full blown attack.
I call this a big set back b/c I have done so much physically and mentally to make me strong and deftend against anxiety. I really thought I had learned to accept our situation (or lack of a stable situation). How could I be so wrong?
I feel so defeated.... Is all my hard work for nothing? (of course, I know the answer to that question is NO. But it sure doesn't feel that way). It really put a damper on my good weigh-in this morning.
Like the little counselor that I am, I asked myself. What can I do differntly in the future? So I asked my husband to keep new information to himself (we get new info on our situation sometimes 2x/day) until we know something for sure. It saddened me to do this, because he needs support, too.
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77.6 kg
Lost so far: 9.5 kg.
Still to go: 2.7 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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Losing 2.2 kg a Week
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You are in my thoughts and I don't know you but I bet you are a pretty strong person and you will adjust and come thru this. Just keep your head up and take a day at a time.
16 Jul 14 by member: sandycatiller
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I deal with a lot of anxiety attacks, unfortunately I am self diagnosed as I don't have any medical insurance. Like you, I struggle to differentiate what is anxiety from what might be an physical medical problem. I often feel like it is difficult to breathe, and have chest palpitations. I practice the breathing and kind of trudge through it, but I wouldn't call it controlled lol. It's almost a permanent state of being for me lately. I'm just trying to stay functional through it.
16 Jul 14 by member: Annabelle3117
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And that is a wonderful loss, congrats on that :)
16 Jul 14 by member: Annabelle3117
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i have anxiety too. i'm impressed that you were able to get it under control in 10 minutes! i try the breathing too, but it never seems to work and i end up taking meds. you had a great loss this weigh in, try not to let the anxiety take that away from you.
16 Jul 14 by member: Gnewfry
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