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By living my best life I honor THE GIFT which is my life:) By Revisiting my childhood memories and thoughts yesterday I took a trip in a very cool time machine which is my mind. My life experience in between the time I was born until the NOW has effected the who that I am. I am the same person who has constant dialogue in my mind and an imagination that is creative and fun. Imagination assists me in coping and pursuing my wildest dreams. Waking up I realized dreams are my passion. All I ever wanted to be is "A Real Girl". A Daughter, Wife, Mother, Employee, Friend, Writer, Artist, motivational speaker, gardener, good housekeeper, cook, photographer, good neighbor, good samaritan, exercise enthusiast etc. etc.
To survive in this constantly changing world we were born it takes courage to strive. From my personal experiences in the past and by example of people that I love and have encountered, courage is sometimes synthetically found in a bottle in the form of liquid courage, a magic pill, food comma's or countless other distractions. The main improvement to the ME is that I am allowing myself to feel and by feeling I am getting Real. I am no longer deceiving and lying to myself.
To be a "Real Girl" I have found courage by loving myself with warts and all so to speak. I have realized I am worth the effort and am having fun coming up with ideas and strategy to get from point A to point B. I've been hovering around the 150 mark which is a good weight but not my I-Deal weight. (Weight) - my weight and body is a reflection of the inner me. It takes dedication and practice to realize the dream. I Deal .. I cannot control what cards life will deal me but I can control how I Deal with the life that is given to me.
I am realizing my dreams as sober and as wide awake as I can possibly be. I am awake basking in the sunlight of my life. I look at the world, people, experiences, situations that arise with a clear mind as my Focus is pointed in the Direction of finding peace and comfort through LOVE (Source, God, Heart, Soul).
I am on target and know this by the way I feel. Sometimes I feel like I may burst into a million pieces of happy confetti as I strive for my best life! TOWANDA!!!!!!!!!
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68.3 kg
Lost so far: 19.3 kg.
Still to go: 7.0 kg.
Diet followed: Poorly.
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View Diet Calendar, 19 February 2011:
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1476 kcal
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Fat: 45.30g | Prot: 92.31g | Carbs: 179.09g.
Breakfast: apple, slim fast low carb. Lunch: apple, slim fast low carb, nature valley sweet & Salty. Dinner: corn, spinach salad. Snacks/Other: conversation hearts, popsecret popcorn. more...
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Gaining 7.9 kg a Week
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