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Unexpected weight loss. Keto isn't for me, though reducing carbs would definitely serve me well. I feel as though I've been able to curb my sweet tooth in recent months, which I am grateful for as othing inspires the compulsion to binge more than sweets. Random thoughts at 1:45pm. 1. I need counselling. Nothing to do with weight or food, but I've become more aware of some undiagnosed mental health issuesthat more than likely play some role in why I shot up in weight over the last 2-3 years. 2. I am in most ways content, but still unhappy if that means anything. I need to find inspiration the hamster wheel is draining my soul. I need to push myself to achieve something for me. I need my kids to have something to admire. 3. lost weight on day 1 of my period.Weird. 4. The word mediocre haunts me.i just want one part of my life to be excellent. I have a dozen past lives where this was true inany areas, but right now...5. This is heavy stuff for a fat secret blog. 6. insomnia tonight. 7. so many chores in the morning. weekends suck. weekdays suck more. 8. I need a good cry. I'm sure this looks all depressing, but I'm fine. just making observations. I'd like to feel something. a cry would be a good place to start. 9. I've read 4 books so far this year can't figure out where I stood the time from. less Netflix Maybe. 10. walking is a full fledged habit now. 11. why do I find it so hard to wear my Fitbit? 12. I'm a size 8, which is not a big size. it's the size my dad always bought for me because he refused to believe I was that much smaller than my Mom. Every coat, dress or pants he had ever bought me was too big. Now that my actual size. when I look down. I see more flab around my tummy and thighs, but I see a mostly flat stomach and a well proportioned shape. then I look at my face. I see age. I see a roundness that I associated with school teachers who drank far too much coffee and smelled faintly of cigarettes. When did I stop being young? I think I want to lose weight, only to be able to recognize the woman in the mirror again. The woman I am now is a stranger to me in more ways than one .
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76.5 kg
Lost so far: 1.5 kg.
Still to go: 9.8 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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Losing 0.8 kg a Week
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