Dearest Clair, don't be too down on yourself... Remember how far you have come! I know you are feeling badly, but you have been strong for so long and beaten back more weight than most of us. This has been a dreadful year. Hang in there. Be strong. Fight, girl! Just one day at a time is all you can worry about. Help is coming that will hopefully make things easier for us all. ❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️😀