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I received "The luck of the Irish messed up alcoholic DNA, lol", A sense of humor that has been tested well throughout my life along with some wonderful gifts and beautiful virtues that have been passed down through generations for eons.
I understand I cannot change others but really need to stop letting how I see or feel about some of my family members effect how I feel about myself! Other Family members actions and words will NOT effect me as they have just lost their power because this is something that I can and want to change within myself.
I guess the moral of this journal entry is to let it go, let it be, kaysara sara whatever will be will be etc. The only one that represents me.. is me. I'll take credit for my lovely daughters because they are a reflection of what I want to see. I am thankful about what I finally learned! This weight has lifted from my heart and the timing is perfect just days before a family gathering this coming Thanksgiving. Oh by the way this journal entry ties in really well with yesterdays... Relative to feel great about Relatives lol TOWANDA!!!!!
Living on Borrowed Time - John Lennon
When I was younger
Living confusion and deep dispair
When I was younger ah hah
Living illusion of freedom and power
When I was younger
Full of ideas and broken dreams (my friend)
When I was younger ah hah
Everything simple but not so clear
Living on borrowed time
Without a thought for tomorrow
Living on borrowed time
Without a thought for tomorrow
Now I am older
The more that I see the less that I know for sure
Now I am older ah hah
The future is brighter and now is the hour
Living on borrowed time
Without a thought for tomorrow
Living on borrowed time
Without a thought for tomorrow
Good to be older
Would not exchange a single day or a year
Good to be older ah hah
Less complications everything clear
Living on borrowed time
Without a thought for tomorrow
Living on borrowed time
Without a thought for tomorrow
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68.5 kg
Lost so far: 19.1 kg.
Still to go: 7.3 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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View Diet Calendar, 21 November 2010:
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1676 kcal
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Fat: 37.84g | Prot: 68.38g | Carbs: 287.14g.
Breakfast: persimmon, nutella, Kellogg's fiber plus. Lunch: persimmon, pumpkin, Elite. Dinner: coleslaw, chicken thigh, Healthy Multi-Grain. Snacks/Other: taffy, chocolate pudding, junior mints. more...
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Gaining 3.2 kg a Week
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How right you are. Isn't it funny how when a family member says something we automatically take it to heart as true. I learned not to do that a long time ago. We have to believe in ourselves and not give too much credence to the opinions of others. We only need to respect their right to have one and then it is up to us to do with it what we like. We may choose to keep it, or toss it away depending on the circumstances. We need to value ourselves enough to know that we will do the right thing and then when we have decided we do not carry around negative feelings because of it.
21 Nov 10 by member: chattycathy1955
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Hi Lisa! I've always been enchanted by Ireland and Irish people. Wish I could claim to have more ancestors from there -- bound to be one or two in my lineage somewhere. I don't know what your Thanksgiving family dynamic will be like, but I hope all goes well and no feelings are hurt. Oh... and I love John Lennon's music, but somehow missed this song of his. Just listened to it online. It's funny, but I've had his song 'Watching the Wheels' in my mind the last few days. Do you know that the 30th anniversary of his death is coming up this December? Hard to believe.
21 Nov 10 by member: cocobutt
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I can't agree with you more, Lisa.. When I feel poked by someone especially one of close ones, it hurts, then, the response from me is what was within me...like water from a sponge squeezed. If I had a clean water, that's what comes out when I get squeezed. I can't blame them for dirty water I drip as if it is up to them.. It is up to me how I keep the quality water within me. I have the choice...Thanks for reminding us.
21 Nov 10 by member: happynow
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Great post!
I had and still have the same problem but I have chosen to let go. When I went down to 140 pounds and stayed there for a year my family always focused on ME and how unhealthy I was at 140 pounds. Eat this eat that come with us, one bite wont hurt etc. The more I changed my beliefs and started seeing more results they became jealous and thought I was doing harm to myself so they actually started forcing food in front of me.
Well once I focused on building muscle at 140 to get up to about 170 they became pressured into believing I was on drugs to put muscle on me... I kept on getting leaner BTW since being at 170 my body has changed very much in past three years.
You cant control what others say or do but you can let go and move forward and believe that your on the right path.
What other people cant do and you are doing there will always be some type of friction and jealousy. I get it all the time especially after my surgery.
21 Nov 10 by member: gizmonel
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Irish!!! Lucky us. ;-) I hope your preparations for the upcoming holidays go smoothly Lisa. Thanks for inviting me to the "Healthy Habits" FS challenge. I'm in. ;-) I've been very distracted lately and away from the computer, so I welcome coming back down to "earth." BTW...your journal yesterday reminds me of these great CDs I got recently on Poistive Affirmations by Louse L. Hay. Positive thoughts are SO powerful and can energize us so much!!! Keep up the great work. ;-)
21 Nov 10 by member: Bible Bliss
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