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After about a 2 lb jump during the past week, felt good to have a drop. I was not going to weigh in honestly as I have a few meal road bumps ahead due to special family occasions this week & yesterday...an unexpected one. After an enjoyable but hardly grueling 9 holes of par 3 golf with my kids and ex, they wanted to go to Boston Pizza where there is hardly a safe keto choice to be found except a chicken caesar salad. I threw caution to the wind and had a burger & fries & a soda water with a splash of cranberry juice. I had no concerns about the amount of carbs. I was concerned for a moment about keto at which point I realized I was doing exactly the wrong thing. Feeling guilty about a cheat meal, rather than simply enjoying and going back to my better eating after. So I let the thought go and thoroughly enjoyed my first burgers and fries in 2.5 months. And then went home & enjoyed I'm sure related to lots of walking yesterday & my high carb feast, a 3 hour nap. Woke up with a carb inspired I believe headache. The side benefit to my unplanned treat meal as I decided not to weigh this morning, was then going into my son's bday & chinese food treat tomorrow & post that meal, I would be free of the scale until after I get back from my lake trip, giving me the time to get back on track.
This entry may appear as miniscule ramblings of a food addicted crazed man, but there's a purpose...to demonstrate what my mind goes through when making food choices..& how wrong it is to give in to daily weighing & how freeing it is not to. I literally had considered bringing the scale to the lake with me which is simply obsessive when I think about it! I KNOW its going to be a challenge to eat keto & calorie restricted for the next 1-2 weeks between eating around my parents, them understanding why I eat what I eat, when I eat. But I will be strong and:
-Remind myself I have to be selfish & keep doing what I need to do for me. Only I am responsible & have to live with the consequences good or bad.
-I will only eat what I choose to eat from the available food. There will be meat, salad, eggs to eat if nothing else & options I can work with.
-One workable concession is to adjust my eating schedule at least temporarily to make it more comfortable for those around me without sacrificing my goals. i.e. right now I tend to eat early in the morning & then either not eat again until lunch time..or 24 hours later which I'm sure my parents will find disturbing plus its hard to be making breakfast at 3-4 in the morning in a small cabin without odours, noise. What I can do is have a cup of coffee with my usual cream & hold off on feeding until lunch time and that will be my OMAD. I may do 2MAD for the week, tracking my carbs carefully as per plan & then I'm eating 2x per day with family. While they eat breakfast, if I just have ny usual 2nd cup of coffee while they have breakfast, I believe it will be the least discomfort for them and totally workable for me. The other benefit for me is ultimately I would like to break my early morning eating habit and eat OMAD at lunch time (exception being 1 morning cup of coffee when I wake up. I refuse to give that up except when doing a fast for +1 days). Why I would like to break my early morning eating habit is I believe its part of the reason I have a hard time sleeping past 2am. I know sleeping better wil be of benefit to my health overall, my healing & my weight loss & maintenance plans. I know that its not simply a case of "I only need 4 hours of sleep" as I can wake up prematurely, have a coffee & eat, then 2 hours later go back to sleep for 2 to 3 hours. So yeah, there'a something there.
Anyways, thats enough of my ramblings this morning. If nothing else it illustrates this journey is not easy...and does not come without a plan. I start my challenging 1-2 weeks on a positive note..thankful for a signifigant weight drop from where I expected to be to motivate me & happy to be setting aside the addiction of the scale, at least, for now.
Happy Monday!
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100.9 kg
Lost so far: 27.0 kg.
Still to go: 10.2 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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485 kcal
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Fat: 48.09g | Prot: 10.47g | Carbs: 4.19g.
Lunch: Mitchell's Heritage Thick Sliced Bacon, Coffee, Lucerne 33% M.F. Whipping Cream. more...
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Losing 2.5 kg a Week
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