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Kind of glad I didn't drop weight last night as my OMAD today is bacon slices...and keto cheesecake & strawberry puree'! Not that it doesn't fit my keto lifestyle or I wouldn't eat it. But its a mental thing. How can cheesecake be ok? But it is indeed. Realized this morning I'm starting to eat too fast again so need to be more mindful of that. My ex mentioned a 20 second between bites rule. Seems like an eternity. Otherwise, nothing much going on except thinking about my next fast. Looking forward to it knowing what I know now. This time will tell me if all the things I was throwing at the fast..laxatives, sleeping aids, painkillers, a variety of teas, proton pump inhibitor were causing my stomach ache that made it very difficult and cut short my attempt to go 30 days. That being said, I'm not shooting for a specific length of time beyond 5 days. I am committed to 5 day increments as I want the benefit of autophagy, I don't want the pressure of "do a 30 day fast".
I will feel under enough pressure worrying about money & finding a job. In a way I'm more concerned at this point not working & going stir crazy. I will take walks every day I can but I need to avoid anything that costs me money to do. I don't have any friends or a partner to hang with, while I wish dearly I had a dog for company, it would be irresponsible for me to do so given my financial situation. I've done volunteerism and it just isn't my thing. I start to feel I should start getting paid for my time when I've done it in the past.
The most frustrating thing for me when I look for jobs is my limitation to do a many jobs due to my fractured vertebrae. its a funny story in a weird way to tell, but in 1993 I fell backwards off a stage onto a concrete floor. In the process I twisted my body involuntarily & tore a lower back muscle on the right. It seemed to get better quickly & I was young & strong. As it turned out the event I was at, in spite of how big & well funded it was, the biggest agriculture & rancher event of the year, had no liability insurance. I should have sued and it would have secured my financial future but I was advised at the time it would really not look good for my employer to do so..and I was a good little worker bee, loyal to a fault...and I was feeling fine, right? Well, after I lost my 32 yr career in broadcasting, I would try jobs that I thought I would enjoy due to my personal passions. I am handy at plumbing, small electrical, carpentry..a lot of trades that I had taken pleasure in doing as I guess you would call a hobby...not a 40+ hour a week job though. And every time I tried to make a job out of it, my upper back would get worse day by day. So finally in 2015, I got fed up with it and asked my dr to figure out what was wrong. xrays were taken and to my shock, my dr says, when did you break your back? I said I didnt know I had! He said I had broken 3 vertebrae! Old injury so I knew right away that fall 25 yrs ago had a hidden effect I wasn't aware of. So when I try to be too long on my feet especially coupled with repetitive activity, my nerves get irritated from the rough edges of the fractured vertebrae. What can be done about it, even back then except don't do activities that cause the irritations. Frustrating as there are tons of decent paying labour jobs. Hell, I would enjoy landscaping work seasonally & there are tons of those jobs available, but I can't do them:(
Anyway, jobs, what to do with my time are very much on my mind. I NEED another fast, I think to focus my thoughts on.
Have a great weekend!
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106.2 kg
Lost so far: 21.7 kg.
Still to go: 15.5 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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1153 kcal
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Fat: 110.29g | Prot: 24.87g | Carbs: 20.59g.
Lunch: Mitchell's Heritage Thick Sliced Bacon, Keto Strawberry Puree', Lucerne 33% M.F. Whipping Cream, Coffee, Sugar Free Keto Cheesecake. more...
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steady weight
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