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I can't believe my weight is increasing so quickly.
Part of me is so happy.
But anorexia is mad that everything's going so smoothly. She doesn't understand how I'm recovering so fast.
Thursday was complicated for me. It was the first time I felt hunger in about 4 months. It felt so strange; the feeling was so foreign to me. I also have cravings now. And I don't know how to deal with them. I don't understand hunger and cravings. I haven't had them in forever.
All these things are happening so quickly, and anorexia wants to slow it down. She's succeeded a couple of times and I still have trouble not restricting myself. She's telling me I'm not "anorexic enough." And to be honest, part of me believes her. Part of me doesn't want to let go of her.
My calorie goal from today until Friday is 1800.
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41.3 kg
Lost so far: 3.9 kg.
Still to go: 0 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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1865 kcal
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Fat: 85.64g | Prot: 92.98g | Carbs: 193.49g.
Breakfast: Plain Congee, Brown Mushrooms (Crimini Italian) , Nephrite Jade Dates, Hard-Boiled Egg , Chicken, Chicken Stock . Lunch: Soy Sauce, Tenderloin Pork, Plain Congee, Cooked Okra (from Fresh, Fat Not Added in Cooking), Bertolli Extra Virgin Olive Oil. Dinner: Bertolli Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Pig's Feet, Shrimp, Chinese Cabbage (Bok-Choy, Pak-Choi) (Without Salt, Drained, Cooked, Boiled) , Cooked Spinach (from Fresh, Fat Not Added in Cooking), White Rice. Snacks/Other: Hearty Snack Bars - Red Quinoa Barres, Voortman Oatmeal Cookie, Natrel 2% Partly Skimmed Milk, Voortman Oatmeal Cookie, Soda Cracker (Sesame), Blueberry Cheesecake, Natrel 2% Partly Skimmed Milk, Neilson Dairy Fresh Homogenized Milk 3.25%, Say Cheese! Kale Chips, Peaches , Soda Cracker (Sesame), Donkey Hide Gelatin Cake, Hearty Snack Bars - Red Quinoa Barres. more...
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Gaining 2.3 kg a Week
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