Obsessive Chocaholic's Journal, 14 Jun 18

You're right about the struggling. I'm just not in that place right now, where I can even be bothered trying to diet. I enjoy my food too much & when it has sugar in it or breaks down into sugars, I enjoy it even more. I have to be in a certain frame of mind to ease up on eating bread & sugared cereals, chocolate bars, dessert etc etc I'm just not there recently. Six weeks ago I held my sweet 16 yrs old Pomeranian as she was put to sleep because of total Renal failure. I miss her so much & still grieving & maybe thats why I just don't care to 'diet' at the moment. Or maybe that's just an excuse. whatever it is, I'm just not ready. And I don't think anyone can help because I don't want to change any habits at the moment. But really....THANK YOU for caring. Everyone who supports me is being so sweet & I don't feel worthy of support right now. If I was doing something positive with my weight, then yes, support would be awesome........but I'm not & I don't want to just now. And I am a resident of Alberta Highland Heather & I come from the land where the heather grows! 

I live in Southern Alberta. Thank you for the offer, Highland Heather, of being a walking buddy. I used to walk lots but due to physical health problems, I can barely walk a block & then I need to sit & rest. It's too painful on my knees & legs. And I am direct from Scotland but my husband is from Southern Alberta. Where in Alberta are you? And also, thank you so much for the posts & comments. 

Medicine Hat. Kinda far for a walk lol!! I have degenerative disc disease, 3 ruptured discs, fractures in the vertebrae & lower spine, Fibromyalgia & waiting for a knee repair, so every three months I get cortisone shots in my knee (other knee was repaired last year) & every few months I get 10 spinal injections of a steroid cocktail. Besides being more than 100 lbs overweight. I can't walk more than a block without needing to rest my legs. I should be going to aquasize for exercise, but I'm just too lazy at the moment. Thanks for caring as I said before. Good luck with your weight journey.