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Superbly depressed today. Found out this morning that the job I was really hoping to get was filled on Monday, and that they simply hadn't had time yet to call everyone else with the news. Also found (and I think it's from my oncoming period) that I've apparently gained two pounds since yesterday. I think the TOM is also why I'm feeling depressed. A couple years ago I was diagnosed with premenstrual dysphoric disorder, and was put on mood pills for the week before and during my period. I've since gotten off of them, and for the most part can manage my mood, but it's hard when everything suddenly compounds.
I've got a Bachelors in Communications, but now everyone wants a super specialized degree and/or at least five years of experience. Even with the specialized degree there are still a huge number of people unable to find jobs in their fields. It's depressing and disheartening to feel so completely and utterly useless. It's a vicious cycle of 'I need experience to get hired, but no one will hire me to give me said experience'. All I need is someone to take a chance on me. I'm 25, living on my own and paying all my bills on time with a waitress salary. I'm willing to work 40+ hours a week, and I don't feel that anything legal is below my pay grade. If someone can show/teach me how to do something, nothing is out of my job description. I've got the drive and the intelligence to be a great asset to any company if only I could get my foot in the door!
I don't want to wait tables my entire life. I know I'm capable of so much more. Going back to school for me right now doesn't seem like the best of ideas, considering that all the job postings I come across ask for a high school degree and X years of experience. I'd prefer to not waste any more time and money on something that hasn't done me any good thus far.
And I do realize that I'm not alone in this situation, either. It just pisses me off a bit when I know people who have had incredible jobs that I would kill to get, and they complain or quit. Example: An acquaintance of mine worked at an Amazon shipping facility as some sort of floor manager. Someone called him fat, so he threw a hissy fit and quit. That's the kind of thing that aggravates me to no end. Someone like that gets handed an amazing job to throw away, while I have to kick and claw to try and find something worth holding on to.
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928 kcal
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Fat: 16.62g | Prot: 38.25g | Carbs: 126.75g.
Breakfast: wegmans american cheese, wegmans shaved turkey, wegmans mixed berries, premium sticky rice. Lunch: michelinas chicken alfredo florentine. Snacks/Other: stoli, voltage. more...
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2103 kcal
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Exercise:
Dance Dance Revolution - 21 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 39 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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It took me a long time to find my current job and be able to pay my bills (by that I mean necessities). I struggled a lot, because I'm a high school drop out, with a GED and only a little college. I got handed some OK jobs and some not so OK jobs. It was when I was held at gunpoint at work that I decided there was a line... Anyway, I totally understand the frustration that you got the education and still aren't doing what you were meant to. The little college I did take, was for UNIX admin work, I got a 4.0 in all the classes and never went for my cert, because I never had the $. Sigh, now that I do, I'm working up the courage to go back and fix it, but then I'll be faced with the same problem- how do I get that experience so people will trust and hire me? It's a frustrating cycle, I agree, but if you hold out faith, or hope, or whatever, the right job will come along and someone will give you the chance you deserve. It's just holding on until you do that makes it hard and generates all that stress. Meanwhile, I too, get to listen to my brother who makes over 100k at his job complain about how horrible his job is on occasion and want to smack the crap out of him. There are always the ones who see greener grass, but never the whole picture.
20 Mar 12 by member: QuirkyNat
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@Quirky: Yeah, it's a rough cycle, but I'm with you. I agree wholeheartedly that those of us who have done everything right and had to plow through with our heads down to make it will eventually be remembered by karma.
08 Apr 12 by member: kitty-eared-girl
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