Johanne's Journal, 11 Sep 15

So many of us on this site are so very fragile in so many ways.

There are those of us who join this site to lose 5-30 lbs. I applaud these people who nip the weight in the bud before it becomes a serious health issue. There are those of us who join because we are truly obese. And then there are those who join because they are anorexic or bulimic and, hopefully, trying to overcome this disease.

Last night I came home to find this message on one of my journals.

"1. this uis very insulting to the people which DO in fact SUFFER from eating disorders. Having an eating disorder is not anything like "going on a diet" and if you knew anyone that does live their life with one of those horrid diseases, you would not wish to have one as well. 2. you're not technically starving."

I apologized to this young woman, then went to look at her profile and food journal and found that it looks like she is, indeed, anorexic. I'm so sorry for that. It can, indeed, be deadly and is extremely difficult to overcome. I have a foster daughter who has fought extreme anorexia her whole life. Her weight has been as low as 85 lbs.

I went to bed at midnight. I couldn't sleep. I was up by 4:30. I realized I was very angry.

I had made the comment that when I eat, I get hungrier and that it is easier to not eat. I used the word anorexia, but said I knew better. I didn't "wish" to be anorexic. What I want to know is, for those of us who have difficulty not over eating, is this not an "eating disorder"? Is this not potentially as deadly as anorexia and bulimia? I realized that I found the the phrase, "Having an eating disorder is not anything like "going on a diet"", very offensive. For most of us, this is not "a diet". It's our very life. And, "2. you're not technically starving," in my case, that's exactly what was happening. I'm a celiac. We are not absorbing nutrients from our food, so even though we may be eating huge amounts of food, we are "technically" starving. I was living on transfusions. I almost didn't survive childhood and many don't. I wasn't diagnosed and lived my life with so many horrid side effects of the disease including chronic bronchial asthma, severe anemia, weird female issues and pregnancies, teeth growing in with very thin enamel so they had pits in the surface and just snapped off, IBS, colitis, severe reflux, etc., etc., etc.

We didn't figure out what was wrong until I was 65. My health issues, because of celiacs, stunted my life. I did permanent physical damage that can never be repaired. With all that, I'm so thankful that we did, finally, figure it out. I'm now no longer spending 50% of my life in and out of hospitals.

We are not "going on a diet." We all have "eating disorders", some worse than others. For any of us to belittle another's journey or to assume ours is more important or harder than theirs is egotistical and self centered. We are all fighting our demons and, hopefully, striving for a healthier life. It's so much harder for some than for others but all are equally valid.

Be careful when you go on the attack, whether it is politics, religion, weight loss or weight gain. We all deserve respect and most of us don't purposely set out to offend. This is supposed to be a safe forum to get our feelings and struggles out there so they are not destructively eating at our souls.

I'm off for a camping weekend. I hope everyone has a great one.

View Diet Calendar, 11 September 2015:
1360 kcal Fat: 68.27g | Prot: 66.93g | Carbs: 114.78g.   Breakfast: Egg, Bob's Red Mill Gluten Free Whole Grain Rolled Oats, Truvia Calorie Free Sweetener, Coffee. Lunch: Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Birds Eye California Blend, Chicken Thigh, Uncle Ben's Natural Whole Grain Brown Rice. Dinner: Birds Eye California Blend, Colavita Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Chicken Thigh, Uncle Ben's Natural Whole Grain Brown Rice. Snacks/Other: NOW Organic Acacia Fiber, Hard-Boiled Egg, Hard-Boiled Egg, Applesauce Unsweetened. more...
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Well said!.I thought that the person's reaction was unwarranted.Alot of us are fighting for our lives by being here, have come a long way, but still face daily struggles, so its good to express your experiences and things you have problems with.You might find others are going thru the same thing and offer each other advice.It was perfectly clear, that you were not wishing to be anorexic.Have fun on your weekend. 
11 Sep 15 by member: UmmBilal
Your entry is yours and not to be attacked. I feel there should be no judgement on what we post. ONLY SUPPORT. Sometimes people misinterpret what we say or we use the wrong terminology and get dinged for it. Your health issues that you lived with so long has had a profound effect on your quality of life and I applaud you in your effort to be healthy and feel good. Have a great time camping ! 
11 Sep 15 by member: iulani
Very well said! FS should always be a place that is supportive and non-judgemental accepting of everyone, irregardless! Enjoy your weekend. (((((hugs))))) 
11 Sep 15 by member: kclab
Joanne dearest - let the comment go. You apologized. You are the mildest sweetest woman who would not offend anyone intentionally. We sometimes make mistakes with our language but folks are just too damn sensitive these days. I'm sorry you suffer with celiac disease. I had forgotten. It's difficult enough to lose weight when the problem is 'only' emotional eating. Most of us have that issue here. What goes on between our ears is a significant enough handicap. So screw the haters. This is YOUR journal page. Let those who have issue with your journal go read some one else's. Be kind to yourself above all else and try not to let the negative comment stay with you.  
11 Sep 15 by member: sarahsmum
I agree with Sarahsmum - You are sweet and had no negative intentions in your comments. Try to let it go - we all do have eating issues and that is why we bond together here to help and support each other every day. 
11 Sep 15 by member: HCB
Bonnie you are the sweetest woman and one that I consider a dear friend. I am very sorry the lady can't deal with her own demons and has to strike out at others. It makes me angry, too .. and I can see why you couldn't sleep thinking about it. It's a shame people are so shallow. I think the world of you and .... YES .. we are all here because of eating disorders of some kind. I guess I never thought of it that way, but it is true, isn't it? I hope that person calms down and has gotten medical help. We are all fighting for our lives here. Not one of us needs singly out for anything we say ... whether we are poking fun at ourselves or just making a light comment. This really makes me sad. It is hard enough to come on here and admit we have food issues. Ah well. I could say more. I won't. Hugs! 
11 Sep 15 by member: Mom2Boxers
My personal belief is that weight disorders of all kinds call for the kind of non-judgmental compassion few people are willing to summon from within. Especially anorexia which is a ravaging disease that often ends in an early death. I know. My daughter's beautiful, vibrant friend died at 22 and all her family and friends could do was stand by in panic and confusion as she wasted away. It was the saddest thing I've ever witnessed. I cannot begin to imagine what her parents and siblings felt. That said, I am sure, Johanne, from comments others have made about you here, you would never upset or hurt anyone intentionally. Your apology probably went a long way to soothe the person who felt your comment was insensitive. Perhaps rather than giving into a negative aftermath of anger, you can be proud of yourself for understanding that compassion was what was being called for in your response. Another thought -- could it be possible the recipient of your lovingkindness was actually trying to teach not just you, but now the rest of us, something about anorexia that we might not know otherwise. It just came out with frustration. That's my take on it. Keep the faith, everyone.  
12 Sep 15 by member: carol in kinderhook

     
 

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