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Happy Sunday All!
I think my muscles are pretty fatigued. Somehow, I need to build in rest days. Today is one of them. It's forced, in a way, since my kids are here and we are going to a family birthday dinner later, so no time - but it made me realize I need a to build in at least 2 of these a week. The LMT who gave me deep tissue massage intimated that my muscles felt pretty fatigued as well.
Anyway, yesterday my daughter, now 14 (going on 24!), promoted to her 2nd Dan (2nd degree black belt) in Tae Kwon Do - and there was a celebration dinner afterward. What an extremely proud moment. Breaking 2 bricks, 7 boards, and all the forms they do in 3 hours is amazing. There is more drive in her, my son(12), and my step son(15) (all black belts) than I had when I was their age. Amazing. I am grateful. My daughter began this journey when she was 6. She inspires me. And she's a crazy straight A student taking college level classes in 9th grade. OK - enough bragging, I suppose.
At that same promotion, my ex-mother-in-law, who i love (so this isn't a bad account of anything) was saying good bye after the promotion, and she hugged me and asked if i was feeling ok, how's my health? I looked at her quite confused - she had mentioned that I was so skinny and hadn't seen me since beginning of summer and did not know, she was shocked. Ha! There are two things I thought - one, how come she didn't say I looked healthy/slim, and 2. do i look like I am ill? well, on count 1, 21 pounds in 6 months is pretty dramatic as most of my weight was not visible and i didn't look overweight, which could cause questions 2, i am pretty certain i don't look ill (yet) ... and she said so after i asked, she just didn't know since it had been such a huge change. at least what i am doing is visible.
it's strange though ... there is this "ghost belly" i keep feeling. that thing i use to haul around, that i feel is always there, even though it is not. and i keep battling that imaginary belly. i wonder if my eyes can adjust? will that ghost go away? i don't want to liken it to a phantom limb(as that is much more serious, and in no way similar) but it feels like it's still there. weird. and i suppose it is why, as i constantly feel its presence, that i don't take rest days. i am "running to stand still", i suppose. if i stop, does that mean i will gain back 21 pounds?
anyway, just a day of relaxing with my kids here. maybe go to the observatory and grab some lunch then fun family celebration for my SIL's birthday! we need this celebration as we are in the middle of absorbing the loss of MBH's and her family's grandfather - strong as an ox, 90 years old, killed in a freak golf cart accident. we still can't wrap our heads around it. and i will be going to arizona in a few weeks, where i usually play some golf with him each year, and it will be strange that he will not be present, physically.
anyway, hug the ones you love, don't take any time or family for granted - and have a lovely Sunday everyone. if you made it to the bottom of this journal entry, thanks for reading, as i was rambling. ;)
View Diet Calendar, 16 November 2014:
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2223 kcal
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Fat: 110.23g | Prot: 112.18g | Carbs: 187.15g.
Breakfast: Panera Bread Asiago Cheese Bagel, Oscar Mayer Center Cut Bacon Original, Butter, Fried Egg. Lunch: Crystal Farms Shredded Cheddar Cheese, Skyline Chili Vegetarian Black Beans and Rice Bowl. Dinner: The Loop Pizza Grill Walnut, Cranberry and Goat Cheese Salad without dressing, Beef Top Sirloin (Trimmed to 1/8" Fat), Trader Joe's Mini Sourdough Boule. Snacks/Other: Trader Joe's Old Fashioned Blister Peanuts, Breyers All Natural Vanilla Ice Cream, Stonewall Kitchen Raspberry Sauce, Angel Food Cake. more...
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