Some sleep last night. Or non-awake periods, at least. During the awake parts I began thinking about that fitbit wrist band again just to monitor if I’m sleeping when I’m not awake but then wondered what I’d do with that information.
For dinner last night I made my favorite go-to meal: chicken, vegetable and tortellini soup. But I didn’t even feel like chewing (yes, just that tired) so my dinner consisted of sipping the hot, spicy broth while I watched the dvd ‘The Rose’.
Then I let a little part of me ‘break open’ and release some of pent up grief, sadness and frustration that had been lingering in my body combined with exhaustion and loneliness. I wailed louder than Midler as I walked, crawled, even lay on the floor. Maybe I invented a new Yoga move: unstructured sobbing child pose. A long soak in a warm soothing tub followed. My bedtime coffee with a biscuit. And then:
Drumroll….. I fixed my dryer. Okay, I didn’t really ‘fix’ it so much as I cleaned the vent outside, pulled the hose loose and vacuumed it until that ball of lint from hell blocking it broke free but it’s drying now. Made me feel like:
And in the relation to ‘All Things Food’ ~ well, I remembered doing this similar thing a couple of years and nearly 100lbs ago and it was much harder being on my hands and knees on the floor trying to maneuver stuff. So, yay strength and mobility that accompanies healthy weight loss. Well, physical at least. Still have a ways to go on mental health.
Bacon, eggs and a biscuit for breakfast. I’m feeling a little better today than yesterday. I’ve unplugged the phone and put the mobile on silent. I’m going to be quiet and reflective today. The dishwasher and dryer malfunctions may be just faulty appliances but they have given me pause for considering how I use my time and resources. So I’m looking at some of those other robotic moves I perform; an effort to identify room for improvement.
Wishing you all a wonderful weekend. Thank you for stopping to visit with me.
Bells
