|
Ok so FUNK has gone away mostly and Saturday-Tuesday was a very bad stretch. I was so angry that I lost two job prospects that were shoe in's and all because of this fucking virus. I haven't been that mad in a long time and I beat myself up by ordering a pizza, having donuts and cake.
I did so good for over 30 days and I totally feel off the wagon. This is how I get when I can't control certain things that are happening to me. So I latch on to things I can control and that is food and I stuff my face. I was so depressed Tuesday that I slept all day, never left the house and even skipped out on my mom's Bday dinner. I just didn't want to see anyone and all I could do was cry and punch and throw things.
With 63 coming up and the way the world is right now with jobs I am more scared than ever. I can't live on SS right now and I'm worried about my well being for the future. I have no partner, kids or any one to leann to take care of me and that scares the shit out of me even more. I know getting healthy right now can change that outlook but it's the whole "GETTING THERE" process that is so hard right now to even look ahead.
But I felt better yesterday and killed it with activity (SEE APPLE WATCH) and I will continue to do so today. It's always been a roller coaster and I don't know why I think this time would be any different.
|
1435 kcal
|
Fat: 86.04g | Prot: 86.43g | Carbs: 87.10g.
Breakfast: Bob's Red Mill Chia Seed, Banquet Brown 'N Serve Turkey Fully Cooked Sausage Links, Poached Egg. Lunch: Father Sam's White Pita Pockets, Sour Cream (Sour Dressing, Nonbutterfat), Alfalfa Sprouts, Cucumber. Dinner: Ken's Steak House Lite Northern Italian with Basil & Romano, Tomatoes, Cucumber (with Peel), Beef Top Sirloin (Trimmed to 1/8" Fat). Snacks/Other: Wegmans Roasted Whole Cashews Unsalted. more...
|
|