melissatwa's Journal, 22 Apr 20

Some color in life from my garden!
I am learning that 1.5 years of faithful dieting and then maintenance does not erase a lifetime of learned bad habits for dealing with stress and pressure. Kenna wrote on her journal a bit ago that motivation only carries you so far, and it is habits formed that keep you on track. Well, that isn't an exact quote, but I hope I got the truth of it. Anyway, with low motivation, I am fighting desperately to not return to old habits. My work outs are suffering, diet inconsistent, weight is up past "goal" by 5 to 8 pounds the last couple days, my smallest pair of pants are almost too tight. I am not wanting to make excuses. We are all impacted one way or another by the circumstances of life. I've thought of a zillion different things I could do... so many options. I've read them all and have tried so many. I have said before that I never could have made my goal without the help of this community. I also said that I would lose weight the same way I hoped to keep it off. CICO has been my WOE. I know I can continue that... I need the strength and determination to keep going.