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Day 37
I am counting the days until I no longer remember why I am counting the days. Studies show that human beings cannot sustain their responses to trauma for more than 6 months - that heart attack sufferers go back to the their old ways, that even after Sept. 11 people were mostly back to normal life mentally. So with divorce I assume too - even though I have been separated for almost a year, the divorce was filed a few months back and the notice came August 2. According to the decree, my official date of divorce is Halloween. Auspicious? Memorable, anyway!
I did some things this weekend that I would not have done had I been married or if my younger dd still lived with me. I bought some paintings. I hired a handyman. I got a cleaning company and didn't even clean up (Much!) before they came. They are doing a bang-up job, btw! Two women have been here cleaning for 3 and a half hours and I think they are still half hour away from being done. I love them.
So - I am grateful for having resources to make my life better. Grateful that I can get help for the many things that I need done in my life. Grateful for kind acts: a hug from a contra partner, one who sang me a song, another who is ultradedicated and will still dance with me even though I turn into a klutz after I get warmed up!
I have been eating ok, but apparently not enough to be losing. I do see things coming into more focus so maybe the food planning will fit in soon. At least I cleaned out part of my fridge today.
Hope you have a great Monday!
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